Friday, January 30, 2009

BZ Col. James L. Pohl!!!!!

You, sir, have Princess Crabby's undying respect and admiration.
What's right is right and what's wrong is wrong. No matter who is POTUS.

Part of the "The One's" plan for GITMO was to request a four month delay all the military trials and proceedings.
Obama moves on Guantanamo vow, seeks to delay trials
GUANTANAMO BAY NAVY BASE, CubaOnly hours after taking office, President Barack Obama late Tuesday ordered Pentagon prosecutors to seek a 120-day freeze in war crimes trials of prisoners held at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba — his first action toward fulfilling a campaign pledge to close the controversial prison camp.

As with any other blanket order, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. In the case of Abd al-Rahim al-Nashiri, the accused planner of the 2000 USS Cole attack in Yemen....it doesn't work. Or more to the point, it achieves nothing.

It's already been delayed enough. For pity's sake we're finally adjudicating a crime that was committed over eight years ago. As Gladstone said "Justice delayed is justice denied". I agree, so does CDR Lippold.

And who has averted yet another needless and heartbreaking delay? Who has stood up and said no, this is the law, this is what's right? Who has risked his future to DO THE RIGHT THING?

US Army attorney Col. James L. Pohl.

Now, before you say - "Maggie, you are just applauding this guy because he is tough on the detainees." Nope. There is ample evidence that this guy is fair. For example his dealing in the Darbi case.

Or - "Maggie, how can Obama save the world if he can't get everyone to obey?" Nope. Obama can suggest, request, or cajole........but he can't interfere. Perhaps "The One's" crack legal staff could read up on "unlawful command influence". And a word to the wise, the institution that enjoys the most respect from Americans in every poll - the military. So you might not wanna throw any stones in that direction.

"The One" Puts His Foot In His Mouth

....and Cassandra makes sure he doesn't get off scot-free.

The IceMan Cometh
Sacre bleu! The Princess sprang from betwixt the marital sheets yesterday morning to find the long driveway leading to her humble abode encased in a solid inch of glistening ice. It had been shoveled clean of snow at 9 pm, but for some odd reason having nothing to do with the utter absence of orange trees in her yard, she preferred sleep to staying up all night with smudge pots lit and snow shovels at the ready.

In the morning, she dutifully donned multiple layers of clothing and trudged outdoors to chip a 2 foot path to the street. The rest of the driveway is still encased in ice today. It never did melt.

Our new President, who chose to send his daughters to an exclusive private school in DC, was quick to chide area residents for our general lack of hardiness in the face of the latest irrefutable evidence of global warming:

Go read the rest.....it is very good. No one rips a faker like Cassandra.

H/T The Armorer

Thursday, January 29, 2009

So, Today Starts Off Well

I was up at 0745 to join in a Milblogger's Roundtable.

Also in the call were Chuck of America's North Shore Journal, Bruce of Q&O, Galrahn of Information Dissemination and several others.

I greeted Bruce when he came on the line and he replied "I should have guessed you'd be on the call about pirates!"

I laughed "You're right! I always aspired to be the pirate's lady! Too many Errol Flynn movies."Chuck chimed in with "Or Johnny Depp."

Yeah.....no, now that I am looking at this pic, have a mental image of Johhny Depp and consider today's pirates......I'll stick with Sailors.

Anyway, the Roundtable was good and I will have something up in a bit.

Rear Admiral Terence E. "Terry" McKnight Expeditionary Strike Group 2/Commander, Task Force 51/59/151 was very interesting and he managed to answer all my questions during his presentation and while he was answering other people's questions. But not to worry, SJS had slipped me a few questions, so I had stuff to ask!

BTW, because of the early hour.........I attended in my favorite black nightgown.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

USS Constitution Is On Twitter

Go here and show your support by following USS Constitution.

Why Is Cheese Delcious On Italian Food......

...but when you melt it on Chinese food it's disgusting?"
From the Daily Show (shameslessly stolen from The Castle) on how people with Bush Derangement Syndrome deal with the new day.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

He's Not Talking About Me!

That would be ridiculous!

VADM Harvey's words are being discussed far and wide.

Here's the part that riled some -
"With respect to your comment concerning participation in the blogosphere and the upcoming milbloggers conference, let me speak pretty plainly - most of the blogs I’ve dropped in on and read on a regular basis leave me pretty cold. Too many seem to be interested in scoring cheap, and anonymous, hits vice engaging in meaningful and professional exchanges. There is also a general lack of reverence for facts and an excess of emotion that, for me, really reduces the value of the blog. Incorrect/inaccurate data and lots of hype may be entertaining for some, but just doesn’t work for me."

The question was asked - "Who is he talking about?"

Well I just know it isn't me. If VADM Harvey met me, he'd love me.

I Love This Logic

Bob Cerasoli issues a report about five weeks ago.

The city has more vehicles than allowed by law. The law allows for 60. They have over 270.

The city could save a million by cutting some waste there.

And the politicians reply?

Cerasoli is overestimating the savings.

Wait! If he can't guess the exact amount of money the city will save, you don't have to comply with the law that limits the number?

Between this nonsense and Nagin thwarting Bob's efforts to properly protect his criminal investigators, I don't know how he stands it.

Stick with it Bob! You are doing a good job.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I Am A Jackass

So, I'm so brilliant and in charge and I decide that I am stopping everything but vitamins.

And I'm so good at finding out info and making informed decisions.

Yet, I didn't bother to check on how to stop taking steroids.

I expected to feel really good today.....4th day with no Revlimid......no steroid.......but I felt awful and five hours in work exhausted me. Truly. I felt like I was lugging a bag of rocks when I left at 1715. I had to nap for two hours before heading to Jen's for Jack.

Earlier in the day I posted a message in the multiple myeloma listserv asking about stopping the Dex. This was in my inbox when I got home.

Dexamethasone Oral
Do not stop taking dexamethasone without talking to your doctor. Stopping the drug abruptly can cause loss of appetite, upset stomach, vomiting, drowsiness, confusion, headache, fever, joint and muscle pain, peeling skin, and weight loss. If you take large doses for a long time, your doctor probably will decrease your dose gradually to allow your body to adjust before stopping the drug completely. Watch for these side effects if you are gradually decreasing your dose and after you stop taking the tablets or oral liquid, even if you switch to an inhalation corticosteroid medication. If these problems occur, call your doctor immediately. You may need to increase your dose of tablets or liquid temporarily or start taking them again.

Two Tylenol and off to bed.

USS Green Bay



"Fair winds and following seas"

USS Green Bay LPD-20.

The flight deck is knows as Lambeau Field and the P-Ways have street names from the city. The ship actually has a license from the NFL for the logo and the ships seal is green and gold.

Statum Bello Invictus Maneo

Stand and Fight, Remain Unvanquished

Congratulations to the ships officers and crew and Princess Crabby's Ogre who built it.

44 Presidents

SK sent this in an email. Pretty cool stuff.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Not To Brag

But did I tell you the Navy invited me to go somewhere else with them? It's even longer than the last time and further away. I can't, but..........

I would kill to go!

It Probably Wasn't Fair.....

...but all's fair in love and war and winning isn't everything...it's the only....oh, I'm off track.

I ambushed my parents before Mass. It was 10:30 and we were just relaxing before we headed up the hill.

"Oh, hang on. I want to tell you something. Grace and Jen told you that the chemo didn't work, right?"

My mother nods and my father says "Yeah, they are going to try something else?"

"Yeah....no. I stopped taking everything and I told them I'm not going to take anything for two months. Well....I will tell them. When I talk to them."

So I laid out my reasons, pretty much the same way I laid them out in this post.

My mother stood up and said "Ok, it's your cancer."

Off we went to Mass. It was the 10th anniversary Mass for my grandmother.

Father Mahoney was, as usual, wonderful. Have I mentioned lately that I love him.

After Mass we were hanging back at my parent's house and my niece Kelly said "I forgot her name was Grace." We were laughing and Kelly tried to defend herself saying that we always called her "Mama" never "Grace". We just kept laughing and teasing her. Then she said she didn't know her mother's grandmother's name either....we laughed harder....."Her name was Irene.....your middle name...you were named for her!"

I explained about the chemo to my aunt and cousins. Everyone took it well. they all I agree I deserve a break after the last four months.

Over all it was a great family day.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Best Wishes To My Friend Bob Cerasoli

He's waiting for a good word from doctors at BI Deaconess. I hope he gets it.

He's down there in NOLA, slogging away doing a good job.

I hope they appreciate what they've got in this guy.

Being Bob Cerasoli
New Orleans' Inspector General Has faced a year of personal and professional challenges — and there are more to come.
BY KEVIN ALLMAN

It's Been Decided

That is.....if I can get it past my parents.

I am going to stop all drugs for two months. I am going to have my kidneys monitored via blood work.

I am going to give my body time to heal.

I am going to regroup and marshal my forces.

Then we will reassess in two months.

I know SB will be fine because he said it to me before I said it to myself.

Grace said she didn't want me to, but she acknowledged that it's exactly what she would do if she were in this position. Grace also said I had to dedicate myself 100% to good health.....who was she talking to? The most you can hope for is what I was in June.....on Atkins more than off and at the gym more than not.

Jen thinks I'm wrong, but it's my cancer. She said she was very interested in what my number would be after two months of no treatment. Me too.

Frankie and Tommy will agree to whatever I decide.

I had a long talk with my ex last night and he said he couldn't argue with my logic.

Bette asked if I might change my mind when the current number is known next Thursday. What if it drops significantly? I told her it doesn't matter what it drops to, it won't be a lasting response, so it's a moot point.

Tomorrow I have CCD, then a 10th anniversary Mass for Mama Kelley (parents, cousins, aunts and uncles will be present) then Frankie's family birthday party.

I can't tell you how thrilled I am to know I don't have to take the steroids tomorrow.

So if I can make it past my parents......I am golden.

Pete Hegseth On The New CINC

Our Commander-in-Chief, Too
Conservative vets will give Obama the chance Democrats denied Bush.

By Pete Hegseth
Veterans of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan are largely united in their ardent support for victory on those battlefields. At the same time, they represent a cross-section of the political spectrum in the U.S. I patrolled Iraqi streets with conservatives and liberals, blue and white collars, believers and atheists. But about the mission, there was very little doubt. To adopt an old saw: there are no anti-American GIs in Mideast foxholes.
********
Our group, Vets for Freedom, ran millions of dollars’ worth of television and radio advertising this year that directly challenged Obama’s policies toward Iraq and the surge. We aggressively instigated his return trip to Iraq and called on him to tell the truth about the success of the surge. We believed his stated policy prescriptions for Iraq were outdated and pressured him to reconsider his rigid timeline for withdrawal.

But on Inauguration Day, our approach will change—as a candidate becomes our commander-in-chief. We will not do to President Obama what others did to President Bush. Our brothers are still in harm’s way, and Obama is their commander-in-chief, just as he is ours.We will support President Obama whenever possible, persuade him at decisive and deliberative moments, and constructively oppose him when he pursues policies we deem detrimental to battlefield success. Success on the battlefield—as well as the health of our military—must be our lodestar, as we seek to help our new president defend our nation.

You should go read the whole thing.

H/T Op-For

Friday, January 23, 2009

Wow! What Are You Doing Up This Late?

2315?

Possible Side Effects of Velcade

Blood and Lymphatic System Disorders
Thrombocytopenia
Neutropenia
Anemia
Leukopenia
Lymphopenia
Gastrointestinal Disorders
Nausea
Diarrhea
Constipation
Vomiting
Abdominal Pain
Abdominal Pain Upper
Dyspepsia
Nervous System Disorders
Peripheral Neuropathy
Neuralgia
Dizziness
Headache
Paresthesia
General Disorders and Administration Site Conditions
Pyrexia
Fatigue
Asthenia
Edema Peripheral
Infections and Infestations
Pneumonia
Herpes Zoster
Bronchitis
Nasopharyngitis
Musculoskeletal and Connective Tissue Disorders
Back Pain
Pain In Extremity
Bone Pain
Arthralgia
Metabolism and Nutrition Disorders
Anorexia
Hypokalemia
Skin and Subcutaneous Tissue Disorders
Rash
Pruritus
Respiratory, Thoracic and Mediastinal Disorders
Cough
Dyspnea
Psychiatric Disorders
Insomnia
Vascular Disorders
Hypertension
Hypotension

Just Answer My Effing Questions!

I am mental mad!

I have not decided what I am going to do about Velcade. I wanted more info. I sent a fax to the local oncologist.

Hi,
OK, yesterday Dr. Miller decided that we should change the dosage on the Revlimid (25mg to 10 mg) keep the Dex at 20 mg and add Velcade.

I have not definitely decided that this is what I will do. I need more information.

Could you please advise me of the treatment schedule? I know that it happens over several days in the week. I need details. How long would I be there each visit?

Also, my blood pressure was still high (151 over 90 something). How long should it be before I see results with Lisinopril? I have been taking it for seven days.

So I get a call back saying when these treatments are being set up.

Hello? Did you read the message? I asked for information. I didn't ask you to set up treatments. Try answering the questions asked!

I tried to stay calm while I pushed for my answers. "Ok, but I want to know, how long does it take for a treatment? What's the schedule?"

Finally she did give me the details I was looking for. But how aggravating was that? It was a short fax. Read it.

I shouldn't have to call on the judge to direct the witness to answer the question as asked.

After disconnecting the call, I banged the phone four more times and used profanity.

Thanks! Now I have to say a good Act of Contrition.

Not That It Matters

Nothing I said below is anything more than venting.

The discussion is academic.

I made all these points and more in my appointment with Dr. Miller, Dr. Flaherty and Jennifer.

As Jen and I got in the elevator "You know you are not getting out of treatment....let it go."

I relayed all this to SB last night between mixing drinks and singing loudly to the disco channel.

"What if you stop everything?"

"I can't"

"They can't make you do this Maggie."

"No, but my father can and Grace & Jen will have told him by now. You were the one who made me tell them. Your fault."

What's Real and What's Not Real

Let me see if I can explain my extreme frustration. I haven't been all that successful with a great many people in my life. I think Dr. Miller gets some of it, but he has his set of beliefs and I have mine.

This discussion has been remarkably similar to trying to discuss politics with the "headline readers". I passionately believe certain things about politics, America, right and wrong. Before I profer an opinion, I generally try to educate myself on the matter first. I get extremely frustrated with people who counter my opinions with superficial comments.

For example, Gitmo. There are people who reflexively say "We should close Gitmo." or the current favorite "Obama is closing Gitmo." The majority of people who say this, in my experience, are parroting the words of others. They aren't really familiar with the workings of Gitmo, the legal decisions that created the current situation and the facts on the ground. When you question them, they can't back up their opinions. I get frustrated. I want to convey to them all the pieces of the puzzle that they are missing. Because I think if they just had the facts.........

That's how I feel about multiple myeloma and chemo.

I say there is nothing wrong with me and people nod. Are you really listening? I don't have any tumors. I don't have any bony lesions. I don't have kidney problems. Nothing, not one blessed thing.

I get sympathetic nods and comments of "Well you were caught early." Really? Who says? How do you know I haven't been percolating this for a while? These numbers are fairly high. A normal person's IGA measures between 70 and 350. I have read dozens and dozens of accounts from and about patients who have IGA levels between 700 or so and 2000 and are experiencing horrible manifestations of myeloma. My numbers have ranged from 3310 to 5948. Based on numbers alone, this doesn't sound early to me.

Or I get "Let's treat now because it's easier before you become symptomatic?" Really? Who says? My fatigue is less debilitating because I've never broken a bone? My insomnia is more tolerable because my kidneys function? Also, why is no one considering the trade-off? Maybe it is easier now, maybe it isn't - but for sure I am trading actual quality of life right now for a possible benefit later.

Plus, who says those things are coming my way AT ALL? Because that's the normal course of this disease? Well we all know how well Maggie adheres the norm, don't we?

"Multiple myeloma (also known as myeloma or plasma cell myeloma) is a progressive hematologic (blood) disease." Really? Mine has not progressed in ANY way since June and in the myeloma world, that's a long time. As a matter of fact my June number (5948) dropped on it's own with no outside influence to 4940 in August.

"Hypercalcemia, anemia, renal damage, increased susceptibility to bacterial infection, and impaired production of normal immunoglobulin are common clinical manifestations of multiple myeloma. It is often also characterized by diffuse osteoporosis, usually in the pelvis, spine, ribs, and skull." Really? Not one of these things are present in my case. Nor is there any sign that they are on the horizon. Did I tell you how difficult it was for Dr. Hochstin to do my bone marrow biopsy? Yeah because my bones are in such good shape it took a great deal of effort to punch through. And during my va-cay at the Jordan last week there were all kinds of X-Rays and CT scans. Things are still fine. No symptoms.

During the IMF Conference I participated in back in November, they told us that "Revlimid/ld Dex produces a durable response in 92% of patients." Really? Not me.

"The average age at diagnosis is 62 years for men and 61 years for women" Really? I am 47.

My point? My case hasn't followed one single rule or fullfilled one single expectation of this diagnosis. Why must I believe it will progress to being symptromatic?

What if this is all it was ever going to be? An anomaly in my blood work. Who is to say that if I had a less thorough primary care physician, I would not have walked around for the next ten or twenty years fat, dumb and happy? What if my crazy flucuating numbers are merely my body's adaptation to chemical exposure in my youth? I played down the Oilies and I was exposed to an unbelievable amount of stuff. They dumped everything under the sun in the Mystic River basin. The housing project next to the Oilies is classified by the Feds as a "cancer cluster".

Everything that I have been told about multiple myeloma and me, is supposition.

Now let's get to what's real.

Chemo has caused real problems.

Chemo has had real consequences.

One of the potential consequences of steroid use is elevated blood sugar and I have it. One of the consequences of elevated blood sugar is heart disease. Therefore to fight the possible cancer, I have caused a real problem with possible fatal consequences.

Another potential consequence of steroid use is peripheral neuropathy. Of course, they told me that it usually presents much further into treatment (again, my condition is not following the norm) and is possibly reversible. Every morning when I wake up there is some degree of numbness and tingling in my hands, arms feet or legs. That's real. Laying there waiting for it to subside it is very real. Glasses breaking as they slip out of my hands in the sink is very real. the mild ache that remains is a reminder all day of how very real it is. Therefore to fight the possible cancer, I have caused a real problem with possible lifelong debilitating consequences.

Despite taking my lisinopril faithfully, my blood pressure yesterday was 151 over 90 something. There's another very real consequence of chemo. Before my diagnosis my blood pressure normally ran around the 125 over the low 80s.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

You Know When People Say.....

...."I wish I wasn't right about this."???

I never understood that. Until today.

I LOVE BEING RIGHT! Until today.

I have said the words "I wish I wasn't right about this." with the proper sincere tone. But I didn't mean it. Until today.

Four four fucking months I have said "I don't have any symptoms. What if I am doing this for nothing?"

And I was RIGHT.

Nothing.

Nothing.

NOTHING.

I DID THIS FOR NOTHING.

FOR FOUR EFFING MONTHS.

There was nothing wrong with me until I let them make me do things to cause problems.

Do you understand that? Because I when I tell people they just nod sympathetically. But I don't think they see.

Ask anyone who saw me in July. I was 32 lbs lighter. Tons of energy. A little tan.

And happy.

Where am I now? I told him today. I am poor and getting stupider by the minute. "By the minute?" he repeated. It's true. I waved "Sea of Thunder" at him. I gestured toward Jennifer "Do you see this? I started it last week and she wants to know why I am not finished yet. I can't focus."

He read the title. He told me not to take it the wrong way, but he thinks I am the only female patient who has ever had a book about a naval battle in his office.

Now I know how people feel when the police specialist tries to talk them off the ledge.

I probably got maybe half my points across today.

I told him that I wasn't going to do a transplant until my numbers were much better. He agreed, that made perfect sense.

He said Velcade is generally well tolerated.

That's what he said about Revlimid.

Pissa.

Thank You.....

......to whoever decided that a good present for Frankie's 21st birthday would be "Pineapple Jack".

I don't drink a lot, but I think today we will make an exception!

Do you know that Comcast has a classic disco channel?


Booze, disco and M&Ms.....my pity party is in full swing!

If I Really Had Cancer.......

I'd be upset now.

You see, I was born in Boston, but for the purposes of cancer.....I am from Missouri. I told Dr. Miller today that I have a really hard time believing him and the others about this multiple myeloma thing. He said I needed to trust him. I told him he was asking for more faith than Father Mahoney.

Let's see........well one of the first things I read when I learned of my IGA multiple myeloma diagnosis was that IGA tends to be drug resistant.

"But Maggie, that doesn't mean yours will be!"

"Revlimid has a 92% success rate."

Isn't it nice to be special?

Sherri Catches How I Feel About Chemo


Well this Gave Me Pause

This morning's guest Op-Ed contributor wrote of Israeli-Palestinian situation. It's not a solution I advocate, but it's well reasoned and fair to both sides.

The One-State Solution
THE shocking level of the last wave of Israeli-Palestinian violence, which ended with this weekend’s cease-fire, reminds us why a final resolution to the so-called Middle East crisis is so important. It is vital not just to break this cycle of destruction and injustice, but also to deny the religious extremists in the region who feed on the conflict an excuse to advance their own causes.

But everywhere one looks, among the speeches and the desperate diplomacy, there is no real way forward. A just and lasting peace between Israel and the Palestinians is possible, but it lies in the history of the people of this conflicted land, and not in the tired rhetoric of partition and two-state solutions.

Although it’s hard to realize after the horrors we’ve just witnessed, the state of war between the Jews and Palestinians has not always existed. In fact, many of the divisions between Jews and Palestinians are recent ones. The very name “Palestine” was commonly used to describe the whole area, even by the Jews who lived there, until 1948, when the name “Israel” came into use.

Jews and Muslims are cousins descended from Abraham. Throughout the centuries both faced cruel persecution and often found refuge with one another. Arabs sheltered Jews and protected them after maltreatment at the hands of the Romans and their expulsion from Spain in the Middle Ages.

The history of Israel/Palestine is not remarkable by regional standards — a country inhabited by different peoples, with rule passing among many tribes, nations and ethnic groups; a country that has withstood many wars and waves of peoples from all directions. This is why it gets so complicated when members of either party claims the right to assert that it is their land.

The basis for the modern State of Israel is the persecution of the Jewish people, which is undeniable. The Jews have been held captive, massacred, disadvantaged in every possible fashion by the Egyptians, the Romans, the English, the Russians, the Babylonians, the Canaanites and, most recently, the Germans under Hitler. The Jewish people want and deserve their homeland.

But the Palestinians too have a history of persecution, and they view the coastal towns of Haifa, Acre, Jaffa and others as the land of their forefathers, passed from generation to generation, until only a short time ago.

Thus the Palestinians believe that what is now called Israel forms part of their nation, even were they to secure the West Bank and Gaza. And the Jews believe that the West Bank is Samaria and Judea, part of their homeland, even if a Palestinian state were established there. Now, as Gaza still smolders, calls for a two-state solution or partition persist. But neither will work.
A two-state solution will create an unacceptable security threat to Israel. An armed Arab state, presumably in the West Bank, would give Israel less than 10 miles of strategic depth at its narrowest point. Further, a Palestinian state in the West Bank and the Gaza Strip would do little to resolve the problem of refugees. Any situation that keeps the majority of Palestinians in refugee camps and does not offer a solution within the historical borders of Israel/Palestine is not a solution at all.

For the same reasons, the older idea of partition of the West Bank into Jewish and Arab areas, with buffer zones between them, won’t work. The Palestinian-held areas could not accommodate all of the refugees, and buffer zones symbolize exclusion and breed tension. Israelis and Palestinians have also become increasingly intertwined, economically and politically.

In absolute terms, the two movements must remain in perpetual war or a compromise must be reached. The compromise is one state for all, an “Isratine” that would allow the people in each party to feel that they live in all of the disputed land and they are not deprived of any one part of it.

A key prerequisite for peace is the right of return for Palestinian refugees to the homes their families left behind in 1948. It is an injustice that Jews who were not originally inhabitants of Palestine, nor were their ancestors, can move in from abroad while Palestinians who were displaced only a relatively short time ago should not be so permitted.

It is a fact that Palestinians inhabited the land and owned farms and homes there until recently, fleeing in fear of violence at the hands of Jews after 1948 — violence that did not occur, but rumors of which led to a mass exodus. It is important to note that the Jews did not forcibly expel Palestinians. They were never “un-welcomed.” Yet only the full territories of Isratine can accommodate all the refugees and bring about the justice that is key to peace.

Assimilation is already a fact of life in Israel. There are more than one million Muslim Arabs in Israel; they possess Israeli nationality and take part in political life with the Jews, forming political parties. On the other side, there are Israeli settlements in the West Bank. Israeli factories depend on Palestinian labor, and goods and services are exchanged. This successful assimilation can be a model for Isratine.

If the present interdependence and the historical fact of Jewish-Palestinian coexistence guide their leaders, and if they can see beyond the horizon of the recent violence and thirst for revenge toward a long-term solution, then these two peoples will come to realize, I hope sooner rather than later, that living under one roof is the only option for a lasting peace.

It's interesting, it's balanced....right? So what's the WOW! factor?

The author - Muammar Qaddafi, the leader of Libya.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Beware of Offers of Cannabis

No, I wasn't really going to smoke any. I haven't smoked pot in for-ev-er and even back then it was sporadic because all it did was put me to sleep.

But several people have made comments about supplying me with some ever since my diagnosis. I know what they mean. They want to say something funny and supportive.

Now I find out that it would be far from helpful.

From Tim's Wifes Blog -
"So the last funny drug story happened just awhile back at afootball game Olivia was cheerleading at. The mom of another cheerleader has some medicalproblems and we talk shop a bit. She has lung issues and tells me that she wound up with somefungal pneumonia thingy and I said, "you mean aspergillosis?" and she said "Yeah, that was it!"
Aspergillosis is something that used to be fatal and MM'ers and those going through transplant can be at risk. It is also something you can get from smoking pot which is often contaminated with the fungus."

Just say no, kids!

Day One - No Traz

My brain still works.

Still not fast, but it feels better.

I see the myeloma specialist tomorrow at NEMC (my third meeting) and I am going to get tough with him. I am bringing Jen with me.....and who's tougher than me? Jen.

When I was in the Jordan and she raised her eyebrow at someone who made her repeat herself.....yikes!

Anyway I made it through the new stuff over at the Phibian's and the Castle. I was so with it, I sorted through some stuff at Information Dissemination!

Last night I took myself to the movies - Defiance - it was good.

Today my baby turned 21. It feels weird.

Do You Have A Macy's Nearby?

They are settling a lawsuit by giving away free cosmetics.

I was on my way to the movies last night when a salesperson from Macy's told me to go through the cosmetics department and get something.

There were several department stores involved and there are several items to choose from.

The details are here. But it was simple enough. I walked into the cosmetics department, there was a queue and I signed my name and got Clinique Mouisture Surge!

This Is Ridiculous!

I am stopping the Trazodone.

Someone told me about an herbalist in Plymouth and I am going to go there. There must be something I can take that will put me to sleep and not mess me up.

I didn't get to work until 1400 today.

So far my choices are -

Take nothing and not sleep.

Take 50 mg Trazodone and go to sleep, but wake up shortly after that and not sleep.

Take 100 mg Trazodone and sleep 12 hours....but be fuzzy and useless the next day.

Plus it exacerbates the tremor so I am shaking like a leaf. I broke another glass today while I was doing the dishes.

And I can't discount the possibility that it was the Traz that put my in the hospital last week.

I have tried valerian and Simply Sleep.

Let's see what else I can try.

All I am sure of is that insomnia is better than how I felt today. I am more useful at work on 2 hours of sleep than on 100 mg of Trazodone.

I've also added curcumin to the vitamin/supplement list. It's supposed to make the steroid work better so you don't have to take higher doses (which is good since that may also have been what laid me up last week) and it's supposed to counter act some of the fatigue.

Sloan Kettering's herbal list shows it to be ok for me. None of the warnings apply to my cancer or my chemo.

I read about it on a blog the Myeloma listserv sent me to.

So basically, like the cinnamon, it's a no harm/no foul supplement to take.

Now to find something innocuous to help me sleep.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Jen's Listening To Michael Graham

She emails me -

"Ok Michael Graham is laughing about the fact that he didn’t know there were words to go along with Hail to the Chief, I feel like a complete geek because when he played it I knew the words."

Sorry Jen, you are a geek.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Ignacio Ramos and Joe Compean

Their sentences are commuted.

Thank God!

They weren't pardoned, which is a travesty - and I don't say that lightly.

But their sentences will end on Mrch 20th. My birthday. I don't think I'll get a better present that day.

Bush commutes sentences of former Border Patrol agents

h/t Sherri

OK, So After.....

....a good night's sleep.....in my own bed....and all the meds are regulated....a little perspective.

Thank you to Jimmy, Karen and Mark at work who found me and called the ambulance. Held my hand until they got there. Covered me with low air loss covers (although I do hope they were clean ones and not from the soiled pile! lol).

To the EMTs and firefighters who I really never saw except for once or twice when an insistent face swam into view and demanded I open my eyes.

To the ER staff at the Jordan, Heidi my nurse, Eileen my continuing care nurse (nice to finally meet you after a million phone calls!). The radiology department. The ER doctor who offered me morphine (I declined). The ER secretary who brought in a phone because my Dad was looking for me (and Heidi who did most of the talking because I was crying).

The people on the telemetry, the nurses and CNAs and LPNs, Maryellen, Sue and Anne. My discharge planner Colette - again nice to meet you Colette.

The people in cardiology and ultrasound. The aides that rolled my behind to all these places (no small task especially with the extra 30 lbs from the steroids).

Some people knew who I was and some didn't so it wasn't just being "Maggie from X-Company", it was that they were genuinely caring. Although as the nurses joked....it was nice that I wasn't incontinent.

I am very lucky. The hospital is five minutes drive away (with sirens - it takes me ten), my oncologist is right there. I have Blue Cross - even with the new $1500 deductible and copays, etc....I am still way ahead of lots of people.

Yeah - What He Said

From today's NYT, Bill expresses how I feel. He usually does. I really like reading him and watching him on FoxNewsSunday. I love his sense of humor. He had a really funny one yesterday on FNS, I'll have to dig it up. I'd love to have dinner with him one....even though he'd be bored to tears, lol.

The Next War President
By WILLIAM KRISTOL
In synagogue on Saturday, before saying the customary prayer for our country, the rabbi asked us to reflect on the fact that a new president would be inaugurated on Tuesday, and urged us to focus a little more intently than usual on the prayer. The congregants did so, it seemed to me, as we read, “Our God and God of our ancestors: We ask your blessings for our country — for its government, for its leaders and advisers, and for all who exercise just and rightful authority ...”

Barack Obama will assume that just and rightful authority at noon on Tuesday. After a dinner with him that I attended last week, as we said our goodbyes, I overheard one of my fellow conservatives say softly to the president-elect, “Sir, I’ll be praying for you.” Obama seemed to pause as they shook hands, and to thank him more earnestly than he did those of us who simply — and sincerely — wished him well.

The incoming president is the man of the moment. He deserves good wishes and sincere prayers. But I’ve found myself thinking these last few days more about the man who has shouldered the burdens of office for the past eight years, George W. Bush.
He wasn’t my favorite among Republicans in 2000. He has made mistakes as president, and has limitations as a leader. But he has exercised his just and rightful authority in a way — I believe — that deserves recognition and respect.

It will probably be a while before he gets much of either. In synagogue, right after the prayer for our country, there is a prayer for the state of Israel, asking the “rock and redeemer of the people Israel” to “spread over it the shelter of your peace.” As we recited this on Saturday, I couldn’t help but reflect that a distressingly small number of my fellow Jews seem to have given much thought at all to the fact that President Bush is one of the greatest friends the state of Israel — and, yes, the Jewish people — have had in quite a while. Bush stood with Israel when he had no political incentive to do so and received no political benefit from doing so. He was criticized by much of the world. He did it because he thought it the right thing to do.

He has been denounced for this, as Israel has been denounced for doing what it judged necessary to defend itself. The liberal sage Bill Moyers has been a harsh critic of Bush. On Jan. 9, on PBS, he also lambasted Israel for what he called its “state terrorism,” its “waging war on an entire population” in Gaza. He traced this Israeli policy back to the Bible, where “God-soaked violence became genetically coded,” apparently in both Arabs and Jews. I wouldn’t presume to say what is and isn’t “genetically coded” in Moyers’s respectable Protestant genes. But I’m glad it was George W. Bush calling the shots over the last eight years, not someone well-thought of by Moyers.

Many of Bush’s defenders have praised him for keeping the country safe since Sept. 11, 2001. He deserves that praise, and I’m perfectly happy to defend most of his surveillance, interrogation and counterterrorism policies against his critics.

But I don’t think keeping us safe has been Bush’s most impressive achievement. That was winning the war in Iraq, and in particular, his refusal to accept defeat when so many counseled him to do so in late 2006. His ordering the surge of troops to Iraq in January 2007 was an act of personal courage and of presidential leadership. The results have benefited both Iraq and the United States. And the outcome in Iraq is a remarkable gift to the incoming president, who now only has to sustain success, rather than trying to deal with the consequences in the region and around the world of a humiliating withdrawal and a devastating defeat.

The cost of the war in Iraq, and in Afghanistan, has been great. Last Wednesday afternoon, in the midst of all the other activities of the final week of an administration, Bush had 40 or so families of fallen soldiers to the White House. The staff had set aside up to two hours. Bush, a man who normally keeps to schedule, spent over four hours meeting in small groups with the family members of those who had fallen in battle.

This past weekend Barack Obama added to his itinerary a visit to Arlington National Cemetery. Obama knows that he, too, will be a war president. He knows the decisions he makes as commander in chief will be his most consequential. And so on Sunday morning, before going to church, he placed a wreath at the Tomb of the Unknowns and stood silently as taps was sounded. The somber tableau provided quite a contrast to all the hubbub and talk of the last few days. Obama’s silent tribute captured a deeper truth, and — I dare say — a more fundamental hope, than could any speech.
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You see, just as I was deeply offended by the insult of the shoe throwing because "W" is my President, so to I have hope for Obama. If he fails America fails. I get that unlike all the asshats who wished for "W" to fail. I get that. So like Bill writes above, I pray for Obama.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Slow Moving

So, my secret plan to sneak into work despite my boss' and my family's objections. It never came to fruition. I am moving too slow and I am too weak. It's steroid day and even at the lower dose, I am not good for much.

Instead I am trying sort through some stuff. One of my goals for the bedroom renovation is to go through everything I take out and not just blindly move stuff back in.

I am a packrat.

So last night I went through a box and reduced the contents by 3/4s. For example, Frankie and I went to Riverdance years ago. It's normal to save a program.....I had four.
We have been to Disney a few times, Tommy and I......Tommy, Frankie, John and I....Frankie and I.....Frankie, Danny (one of my extras) and I.....Frankie, Earl (Earl is one of Frankie's good friends and I knew if I brought him I could just lounge at Typhoon Lagoon) and I....every ticket was in that box.
Receipts so worn that I couldn't tell what they were for. LOL, I am bad.

Today I've resolved to go through the lingerie chest. I've been putting it off. Back on October 23rd my claddagh necklace broke. The charm was fine, the chain was fine. But the piece that connected them broke. Once I found the charm in the bed where it was under the pillow I thought all was fine. I took the necklace off. I remember doing it and putting it "somewhere safe".

And now "steroid girl" can't remember where that is. I've looked a few places, but I am so afraid of not finding it, that I'm not looking that hard. It isn't lost if I haven't looked everywhere. I know, it's hard to follow how my mind works.

So, my normal "safe place" is the lingerie chest. I don't wear jewelry often, consequently I don't have much. The bulk of it is in the lingerie chest.

But today I am making myself do it. I'm three drawers into seven and it's not looking good.

I broke open a sachet in the 3rd drawer and made a mess. I pulled out the vacuum and it wasn't sucking anything up. I was perplexed because I had recently changed the bag.

The hose was completely stopped up with all manner of things that should be *picked* up, not *vacuumed* up.

Seems the boys have been cleaning in my absence. I know it's the thought that counts - but these mutton headed boys will try to vacuum up anything smaller than a dead body rather than bend over and pick it up.

Ok, back to the search. It's bumming me out. My Dad gave me this necklace when he came back from a trip to Ireland in '03 and I basically NEVER take it off.

Is Multiple Myeloma One of Those Magical DXs?

In my business, durable medical equipment and home oxygen there are certain magical diagnoses. For example COPD or Alzheimers. When people call to order something and I ask for a qualifying diagnosis. They rattle off stuff. "Unsteady gait. OA. History of falls. COPD." I interrupt, "We have a winner." Or "History of MI. Hypervolemia. OP. Alzheimers." I interrupt, "Ok, I'm all set."

We've had, in my nearly 14 years with the company, one patient with MM. She got a scooter. But she was Blue Cross and BC is a physician order driven insurance so I wasn't expecting it to be a problem.

So I never thought of it, but Multiple Myeloma must be one of those magical diagnoses. They see ICD-9 code 203.00 "multiple myeloma without mention of remission" and it's your gold ticket.

I understood that the EMTs had to take me to the Jordan. It's a liability issue. They aren't allowed to say ok, when I tell them I'd just like to go home. They have to convince me to go with them. And I was exhausted, so I went along. I was anxious and embarrassed and weepy and I figured that they would check me out and tell me to go home and rest. Someone from work would come get me and take me home. Finis.

But no.

First off, comedy. I had to wait for CT scan and X-Ray until my pregnancy test came back negative. What? Are you kidding me? I've not had many X-Rays but I know they ask if you're pregnant and then you say no and they X-Ray you. I've never heard of anyone needing to actually take a test. I said "Trust me, I am the least pregnant person you know. I have had 7 pregnancy tests since September." I know they just thought I was out of it because I could not articulate that my Revlimid deliveries hinge on negative blood tests for pregnancy. But still this made no sense and no one has been able to explain it to me.

While I was in the ER they told me that my potassium was really low, not critically so, but it certainly could be a factor. I struggled to think if I had read anything about MM and potassium or Revlimid and potassium or ld Dex and potassium. But I wasn't coming up with anything. I was having some trouble answering questions. Not all of them. I was able to respond mournfully that the President was "W"....but sadly, only for a few more days. But I couldn't tell them what my Trazadone dose was. And when they mentioned using contrast for my CTScan I was panic stricken and babbling. I couldn't remember why, but I knew I couldn't have contrast (turns out that MM patients shouldn't have contrast because contrast is tough on the kidneys and your kidneys are already on shaky ground with MM).

Anyway, they admitted me and I was baffled. They had given me a potassium pill. My blood pressure was coming down. My CTScan was negative except for my thyroid being large and I already knew that. I've had it biopsied. It's fine.

So up to the room I went. It was around noon. They told me that my oncologist would check in with me the next day and I could make it overnight, couldn't I? (Now remember, I can't make a big stink......I'm Maggie from X-Company and everyone knows it.) My boss came by with my license, health insurance card, cash, ATM card and my glasses from my desk. Jen came right away with more cash and Frankie and books. I finished "The Given Day" while I was there and started "Sea of Thunder". Frankie went and got me the standard remedy for sick people in my family, a chocolate ice cream soda. I told my Mum and she asked if he remembered chips. He didn't, but I was still happy.

Dr. H came in around 1830 and told me that he wanted to watch me for a couple of days. Days!!!!! I didn't argue, but I spent all of the next morning rehearsing my argument for getting out by noon. Then the nurses said that he wouldn't be by until after his office hours around 1700.

Grace brought my parents down. My father made me pumpkin bread and he brought 3 slices individually bagged for my sisters and I. He also packed a real knife, napkins and butter. My father is a careful orderly man.....you have no idea how I baffle him. They were there when Dr. H showed at 1800. We all listened while he explained that my heart monitor looked fine and my blood work showed the potassium deficiency was corrected......he was disturbed that my pulse was dropping to the 50s and my blood pressure was wildly erratic. So he really wanted me to stay. I look at my father "Do as you're told." Well that's the end of that....isn't it?

OK, this is where my mother rats me out. Dr. H asked how I felt. I felt like shit, I hadn't showered for 36 hours. I was cranky. I had a non-stop headache. The strain of being nice was becoming unbearable. I brightly replied "I feel great!" Dr. H smiled cynically "You do?"

My mother says "You have to watch this one....this one lies." The doctor repeated "She lies?" "Oh yes, she lies."

Thanks Mum. What happened to code-of silence? What happened to punishing the finker?

So I was stuck another night. I wondered how they were justifying this to Blue Cross. After all people are always talking about some friend or relative being bounced out of an uncaring hospital while barely clinging to life. Here I was preparing for a second night.

Then on Friday, Dr. G did her utmost to persuade me to stay a third night.

On Saturday, Dr. K asked me if I wanted to go home or stay. I voted for go home. As soon as he left the room I packed, dressed, stripped the bed and threw all the sheets and towels into the dirty linen container in the hall. I didn't want anyone pointing out that I could stay since I was all "settled in" like Dr. G had said Friday night.

I know they were all perplexed but insurance companies don't often care about perplexed doctors. So I have come to the conclusion that multiple myeloma must be one of the magical diagnoses. Maybe I should get a scooter.

Have I Ever Explained About My Bill?

That's how I refer to him - "My Bill".

Bill is one of Frankie's two best friends.

I have mentioned him plenty of times in passing here, but I don't think I've ever explained. When people ask me how many kids I have, I respond "Two. And two extras" Bill is one of my extras.

In the summer of 2004 there was one kid who slept over more than most. Bill. It wasn't hugely noticeable because there were always kids sleeping over. That's just how Frankie rolls. Then September comes and everyone starts sleeping at their own houses because school has started.

I didn't talk to Bill much. Bill just doesn't talk much. I knew in passing that Bill's mother had passed away and that his father, who had a little drinking problem, liked to settle arguments with the back of his hand.

One night, a few weeks after school started, the phone rang after midnight. Frank beat me to the phone. He spoke with the caller for a few moments and then he hung up. He turned to me and said "Bill has to come sleep here tonight." Keeping in mind what I knew about Bill's home life, I just said OK, threw some bed linen on the couch and went back to bed.

So Bill slept on the couch that night.....and the next night.....and the night after that.

I had no idea what the right thing to do was. I was completely perplexed. Bill's father never came looking for him (he lived less than half a mile away). He never called or came to speak to me - make sure I wasn't a bad person and I didn't run a crack house.

Bill's paternal grandmother (his maternal grandmother had died young just as Bill's mother had from the same illness) never talked to me either, but she was a huge help behind the scenes. She lived across the street from Bill's house, in the house she had raised bill's father in. She sent down baked goods and stuff. It seemed she was some mad shopper because several bags of clothes came down to the house from nice department stores. This was big because I also had Frankie's other best friend Danny with us. Dan's father was deceased and his mother had a substance abuse problem. So the boys shared clothes and food and stuff. Now before you think I am some great humanitarian......I didn't invite this situation. I didn't consciously choose it. I just couldn't get out of the way fast enough. I am no great shakes as a parent. I was divorced and worked 50-60 hours a week. All I could guarantee was that there was food in the fridge, a roof over your head and while I might yell at you for being a mutton and throw a wooden spoon, I never hit anyone in anger (although one day I did run from my front door, across the street, into the Coop, into the ballfield and tackled Frankie at the waist for mouthing off at me - he was defenseless with laughter along with all his friends.)

At the six week mark I was having a conversation on the phone with my ex-husband. I told him I didn't know what to do. Every night I could hear Bill walking around, sleepless. Frankie mentioned Bill's frequent stomachaches. I didn't know if Bill had a doctor or health insurance. John agreed it was quite a predicament. Then he said Bill's father had always been a jerk.

"You knew Bill's father?" I wasn't really that surprised, my ex had been born in the house next door to where we lived. I was the one who was only here for a little bit in the summer as a child. Funny how I ended up here permanently and he ended up in Virginia.

"Well, I didn't know him as well as I knew Bill's mother."

Now I was confused. I knew Bill's father had lived in the house across the street from the house he was born in.....but I didn't realize his mother was also local.

"You knew Bill's mother?"

My ex laughed. "You knew Bill's mother......Patty."

I. Was. Floored.

OK, let's flash back for a minute.

In the former summer community where I live, people bought cottages in waves related to family, friends or coworkers buying cottages. For example, in the 70s where was a wave of policemen and firefighters who bought cottages after this one cop, George bought his. One guy goes to a cook-out at George's cottage and then he buys a cottage, then his friends come down and like it and buys cottages. And so on.

In the 50s there was a wave of printers. My grandfather was a printer. He worked for more than one company, but at the time he worked for Tichnor Brothers. His best friend and coworker, Mr. White (his first name escapes me....it's steroid day) bought a cottage on Oak Street. My grandfather was godfather to Mr. White's younger daughter. My grandparents rented a place or two before settling on the one they bought in '54. It was four doors up from the Whites.

My mother ran with the White's younger daughter.

I remember visiting their cottage frequently with my grandmother. They had a great yard swing.

When I was in my teens it became more noticeable that I was only there for a short time, usually two weeks in July. By the time I showed up all the cliques were settled as most of the other kids were there for the entire summer. But Mr. White's granddaughter....the oldest daughter of his older daughter Ginny would come down and get me when I showed up.

She was incredible. She was tall and thin and blonde and she didn't walk, she glided like a model. I was so awestruck, I couldn't be jealous. If I had to describe her in one word, it would be languid. She was very popular and so I was in-like-Flynn as they say. I thought she hung the moon. Many of my favorite summer memories are about hanging with her. Mama Kelley used to remark on how Patty and I were the 3rd generation of White's and Kelley's hanging out. My grandfather and Mr. White.....my mother and Betty.......Patty and I.

When we hit our late teens I started spending more time back in Charlestown. She started spending more time with friends from school as she lived there year round. Then I married. I heard she married as well.

Then I heard he was kind of a jackass - Mama Kelley and my mother still visited Mrs. White and her younger daughter.

Then I moved down here year round and I thought I thought I should look her up. I never did, I was wrapped up in my own life.

Then in '02 I heard she was ill. I got updates from her aunt and sister. I thought I should try to contact her. I never did.

Then she passed in January of '03 - breast cancer. I regretted never acting.

OK, are you still with me? Now we're back to October of '04. I'm on the phone with John and he tells me I knew Bill's mother....Patty.....Mr. White's granddaughter.

I was really choked up. My ex laughed "How did you miss that? I thought you knew who he was."

I drove home and when Frankie came in I excitedly explained about his great-grandfather and Bill's great-grandfather and Bills' mother and I. "Bill can stay as long as he needs to. I will always take care of Bill. Anything Bill needs."

Frankie listens, nods and in typical "Frankie-fashion" says "Well Bill could really use five bucks."

I laughed "Here's a ten, you bastid, get going."

Then Bill came in and I talked about it to him, he nodded and said "OK".

SB called that night and I told him. I explained that I now got to return all Patty had done for me by taking care of her son. I got to make up for never getting in touch with her when she was sick. "Maggie, this doesn't make you responsible for this boy." I laughed and used one of his own favorite sayings in reply "You can't unring a bell, SB!"

A few nights later I was sitting watching TV, Bill came in and sat on the couch. At the commercial break Bill said "This thing with my mother is a big deal to you." I smiled "Yes Bill, it is." The show came back on. At the next commercial, Bill said "And I'll get it when I am older?" "Yes, Bill, you will." He got up and left the room.

I tried a few times to share some memories with Bill. One night "Live and Let Die" by Paul McCartney came on the radio. I told Bill that his mother and I loved that song and it played constantly in the summer of '73. Another time I told him that the first person to take me down Dead Man's Trail (a popular teen hangout where Frankie and Bill often went) was his mother. But Bill never really responded and I worried I was just stressing him....so I stopped.

Eventually Bills' father met a woman who made him stop drinking and Bill moved home. He's still here at least once a day.

So why am I thinking about this now? Well this past Tuesday was the 6th anniversary of Patty's passing. It's a tough time for Bill.

Bill, understandably, hates hospitals. Jordan most of all.

But Bill came to see me while I was there.

I had the hardest time not crying. Must have been the meds.

OK, Hear Me Out On This One Before You Jump

I am not saying this because I am pro-Israeli.....which I am.

This is not meant to be an unkind knock against a grieving father. I think this man has suffered greatly and I am heartbroken for any parent who loses a child, much less three.

Gazan Doctor and Peace Advocate Loses 3 Daughters to Israeli Fire and Asks Why
By DINA KRAFT
Published: January 17, 2009

TEL HASHOMER, Israel — Dr. Izzeldin Abuelaish is a Gazan and a doctor who has devoted his life to medicine and reconciliation between Israelis and Palestinians.
But on Saturday, the day after three of his daughters and a niece were killed by Israeli fire in Gaza, Dr. Abuelaish, 53, struggled to hold on to the humane philosophy that has guided his life and work.
As he sat in a waiting room of the Israeli hospital where he works part time, he asked over and over, “Why did they do this?”
Elsewhere in the hospital another daughter and a niece were being treated for their wounds.


OK, this is just awful. Tragic. But here's my question. And I think it's a legitimate question.

Why, if you are an educated person would you keep your children with you in a war zone after being warned to leave if you were a non-combatant?

The Israelis have been warning civilians to leave for a while now.

I understand if *he* decides to stay. He's a doctor, doesn't want to leave his people.....ok. But why keep your children with you? He was warned and he had the means to send them elsewhere.

It is not unprecedented in history to see people who stay in a dangerous place, but send their families elsewhere. Look at all the children sent out of London to the countryside or even America during the Blitz.

I understand not deserting your post. But I fail to understand keeping your children in a war zone.

Messing Up Already

I was seen by five doctors in Jordan - ER doc, attending on the floor once I was admitted, my own oncologist, and two of his oncology associates.

The three oncologists each had their own theory on why I fainted.

My own said it was probably the increase in steroids eleven days previous. So he reduced the dosage back to 20mg from 40 mg. He said that when people first started taking Revlimid the dexamethasone was prescribed at 40 mg per day for four days every other week. Then some people developed arrhythmias and the consensus was to lower the frequency of the dose.

Dr. G, who saw me Friday night thought because of my constant head aches and fluctuating blood pressure (from a high of 160 over 100-something as I rolled into the ER to 125 over 85 at some point yesterday) is was high blood pressure. I was up and down through out my entire stay with no rhyme or reason. There were enough results well into the 140, 150 range to concern them. So doctor G prescribed something, I forget the name of now. That's how I ended up staying Friday night. She said she'd like to observe me on the new medication the first night considering how much other crap (my word, not hers) I take. Then she said "After all....." she gestured at my books, my notes (I started "Sea of Thunder" so I had a notepad and a pen in my lap with the book), the over the bed table with my hand lotion, M&Ms, charging cell phone (which I wasn't supposed to be using), hospital phone, bottled water - every need - and said "You're all settled in here."

Dr. K told me Saturday at noon he thought it was the fact that I wasn't taking the Trazadone consistently - none Saturday night, 50 mg Sunday night, 100 mg on Monday night (in response to the doctor changing the order) and none Tuesday night. I confessed that I didn't take it often because it can make me fuzzy and the insomnia pretty much only happens in steroid day and the day after. So he said to adhere to the schedule more consistently.

None of these opinions/instructions conflict so that's ok.

So I filled the high blood pressure med and took it. This morning I took the lower dose of Dex. But I forgot the Traz last night and was up until 0300. My alarm was set for 0815 to take the dex, it's supposed to be taken 1st thing.

But now I am going back to bed.

The Hardest Part Of The Last Four Days

It wasn't the constant headache.

It wasn't the worry that this was the beginning of some downward Multiple Myeloma slide.

It wasn't the egg on my head.

It wasn't six holes/bruises from my IV insertion (or attempted insertion) sites. Very colorful.

It wasn't the worry about missing four days at work (God! That's going to smart come payday!)

All those things were/are tough.......but not the hardest part.

It was the pressure to nice.

You have no idea how difficult this is for me.

The Jordan is one of my employer's biggest referral sources. I wasn't "Maggie" or "patient 123". I was "Maggie from X-Company". Everyone knew that. So everytime I would have snapped at someone......everytime I would have demanded something.......everytime I might have said something snippy.......I had to bite my tongue.

I was unrelentingly cheerful. Everything that happened was met with a bright "Thanks, that's great!" or "That's no problem!"

Up to and including smiling and joking Thursday night as my IV was changed. The EMTs put the original IV in my anticubital fossa (vein inside the elbow) of my left arm. It was awful, lol! I am left handed and everytime I bent the elbow it hurt. So on Thursday when it was clear that I was going to be stuck there another night, they were ready to move the IV to a better site with a smaller gauge IV cath. I asked specifically if it could be in my right hand. I've only had three previous IVs (two babies and one Zometa treatment) and those all went quite well. Well the nurse said she didn't think hand insertions were good. She asked if she could put it in the inside of my forearm. I deferred to her request. If I was "just Maggie" I would have said "No, put it in my hand please." The first insertion was a failure. I never look at these sorts of things when they are being done to me......but there's no mistaking what's going on when you hear "Oh shit". She said she'd try again and picked a site near the first. Another negative "Why can't I do this? You know I am really good at this." At this point "just Maggie" would have said "Stop, send up an expert." Then she said she'd try the outside of the forearm. "Your vein rolled!" So I said - nicely, calmly - "Ok, well let's just go for the hand." Three bruises, one success. Next night, same nurse. My IV was kinked and needed to be reinserted. "Just Maggie" would have said "Get someone else." Again she didn't want to put it in my hand. One failed forearm attempt and it ends up back in the inside of my elbow! At least it was the right elbow.

After all, I am a company girl! I even smiled when one of the discharge planners came in to meet me (I have been talking to these people on the phone for years). After telling me how happy she was to put a face with the name and not to worry about anything while I was there - yes, there is an upside to being "Maggie from X-Company" - she leaned in and KISSED ME!!!! LOL I am not a social kisser. I called my boss immediately "Hey! The things I do for you. So-and-so just kissed me." She might have responded, but I couldn't understand because she was laughing so hard.

The Phibian Says This Is "Well Worth Your Time"

And I concur.

Go read the post.

Watch the vid.

Follow the link.

"The biggest thing people fail to realize is they look at 9/11 as the start on the War on Terror," said Kirk Lippold, former commander of the Cole. "The reality is that the war on terrorism started not on 9/11, but 10/12."

Saturday, January 17, 2009

OK - The Short Version

Wednesday morning I fainted at work. Doesn't that make me sound like such a delicate flower??? Hehehe! Truth is I fell back against some conveniently located file cabinets and slid onto my ass - then - bonk! Fell sideways to the concrete floor of the warehouse.

People yelling - Firefighter & EMTs - Ambulance - Jordan ER - Admitted!!!!!!

Four! Four! Four effing days later I am home.

I am wiped out. I'm fine. I will relay the gory details later.

I had a couple of hundred emails waiting. Seriously, lol. I think I picked out all the directly personal ones (as opposed to the Multiple Myeloma listserv and the Medicare listserv and the NEMED listserv and the newsfeeds I subscribe to) and answered them. If I missed you, it was just that, I missed you and I will catch you tomorrow.

Right now I am headed to Jen's, I was supposed to be there an hour ago.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Where's My Invitation?

January 15-17, 2008

So.....SB Sends

He forwarded an email to me about noting the passing of MOH winner CAPT Ed Freeman. Some feel that not enough attention was paid. I'm sure they are correct. For the record I did note it at the time.

But here is the email

Have a drink for ED Freeman You're an 18 or 19 year old kid. You're critically wounded, and dying in the jungle in the Ia Drang Valley, 11-14-1965, LZ Xray, Vietnam. Your infantry unit is outnumbered 8 - 1, and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200 yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in.

You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns, and you know you're not getting out. Your family is 1/2 way around the world, 12,000 miles away, and you'll never see them again.. As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day.

Then, over the machine gun noise, you faintly hear that sound of a helicopter, and you look up to see an un-armed Huey, but it doesn't seem real, because no Medi-Vac markings are on it.
Ed Freeman is coming for you. He's not Medi-Vac, so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey down into the machine gun fire, after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come.

He's coming anyway.

And he drops it in, and sits there in the machine gun fire, as they load 2 or 3 of you on board.

Then he flies you up and out through the gunfire, to the Doctors and Nurses.

And, he kept coming back.... 13 more times..... And took about 30 of you and your buddies out, who would never have gotten out.

Medal of Honor Recipient Ed Freeman died last Wednesday at the age of 80, in Boise, ID ......May God rest his soul.....

(Oh yeah, Paul Newman died that day too. I guess you knew that -- He got a lot more press than Ed Freeman.)

Have a drink for Paul Newman too "Yeah, well, sometimes nothin' can be a real cool hand".

USS Samuel B Roberts Documentary

Ok, this email gets to me on time. Brad Peniston who wrote "No Higher Honor" emails a group of us once in a while with news related to the book. When the History Channel first aired the documentary "Hero Ships - USS Samuel B Roberts", Brad emailed us the next day! LOL

Today he is a little more prompt. Not much......but.......

Today at 1300 (1 pm EST) and tonight at 1900 (7 pm EST) the History Channel International (please note, that's different than regular History Channel) will re-air this documentary.

This was part of an eight-episode documentary series entitled "Hero Ships," and that the USS Samuel B. Roberts (actually, all three of them FFG-58, DE-413, DD-823) is the subject of one of the hourlong episodes. The Roberts episode features interviews with Capt. Rinn, Bob Bent, and Jack Yusen, and a bit of historical commentary from Brad.

Here is a preview.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Here's What You Need To Know About Gaza

"We will have peace with the Arabs when they love their children more than they hate us." —former Israeli prime minister Golda Meir
With Hamas, Hitlerism comes to the Middle East wearing the mask of anti-Hitlerism.
By Jonah Goldberg
‘Go back to the oven! You need a big oven, that’s what you need!”This is what one young woman thought passed for acceptable discourse during an anti-Israel rally last week in, of all places, Fort Lauderdale, Fla. Other chants were similarly unlovely. You can watch it on YouTube if you like.
But why bother? The Fort Lauderdale outburst is just one window on the upside-down world of Israel hatred. Across the Islamic world, and in too many points West, it is still considered a penetrating and poignant insight to call Zionists the “new Nazis.” For instance, in Sunday’s Gulf News, Mohammad Abdullah al Mutawa, a sociology professor at United Arab Emirates University, penned an essay titled “Zionists are the new Nazis.” He began: “Today, the whole world stands as a witness to the fact that the Nazi Holocaust was a mere lie, which was devised by the Zionists to blackmail humanity.”
At a Saturday protest in New York against Israel’s military assault on Gaza, some carried signs that read: “Israel: The Fourth Reich,” “Holocaust by Holocaust Survivors,” “Stop Israel’s Holocaust,” “Holocaust in Gaza” and “Stop the Zionist Genocide in Gaza.”
Type “Israel” and “Nazi” into any news search engine and you’ll be rewarded, or punished, with a bounty of such statements from just the last week or so. Gaza is the new Auschwitz, the Israeli Defense Forces are SS troops ... I find myself tempted to simply write “et cetera” because it’s all so familiar by now. But to do that is to dismiss, and therefore accept, such grotesqueries as trivialities, when in fact such charges are deeply revealing — just not about Israel.
First, let us note that if supposedly all-powerful Israel is dedicated to exterminating the Palestinian people, it is doing a bad job. The Palestinian population has only grown since 1948. There are more Arab citizens living in Israel proper today than there were in all of Palestine the year Israel was founded.
Perhaps one reason Israel fails at genocide is that it isn’t interested in genocide? That would explain why Israel warned thousands of Gazans by cell phone to leave homes near Hamas rocket stockpiles. It would clarify why, even amid all-out war, it offers aid to enemy civilians. It would even illuminate the otherwise mysterious clamor from Israelis for a viable “peace partner.”
But no. For millions of Israel haters, the more plausible explanation is that the “defiant” Palestinians have miraculously survived Israel’s determination to wipe them out.
Meanwhile, calls for the complete extermination of Israel are routine. The Hamas charter, invoking the fraudulent “Protocols of the Elders of Zion” as justification, demands the destruction of Israel. Hamas exists solely because it is dedicated to the complete obliteration of the “Zionist entity.” Remove that “principle” and Hamas is meaningless.
A sick mixture of Holocaust envy and Holocaust denial is the defining spirit of Hamas. Indeed, Holocaust denial passes for a scholarly pursuit not just in Gaza but throughout much of the Arab and Muslim world.
The head of the Palestinian Authority, Mahmoud Abbas, literally earned a doctorate in it. His doctoral thesis became a book, The Other Side: the Secret Relationship Between Nazism and Zionism, in which he denounces “the Zionist fantasy, the fantastic lie that 6 million Jews were killed.” In Hamas’ eyes, Abbas is an incorrigible moderate.
It’s Palestinian Islamists who have ideological and political ties to Nazism stretching back to the days of “Hitler’s Mufti,” Haj Amin al-Husseini, a happy warrior for the Nazi cause.
So why the obsession with casting the Israelis as the new Hitlerites? One answer is surely that critics know such charges are painful to a country largely born of the Holocaust and marked by its scars. It also grabs attention, galvanizes radicals, vents legitimate frustrations and anger, and helps demonize the enemy and, hence, justify the murder of “Zionists everywhere,” as Hamas often declares in its communiques.
But I think the desire to cast the Israelis as Nazis is fueled, deep down, by the haters’ need to see their own hatreds and ambitions mirrored in their enemy’s actions. Hamas has an avowedly Hitlerite agenda. The only way to make such an agenda defensible is to convince yourself and others that the Israelis deserve it. Hence, Hamas and its allies insist that when they aim rockets at grade schools and playgrounds, they are resisting the “new Nazis.” It brings to mind Huey Long’s reported prophecy that if fascism ever came to America, it would be called anti-fascism. Well, with Hamas, Hitlerism comes to the Middle East wearing the mask of anti-Hitlerism.
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The quote and pic are from the Patriot Post. Jonah's column is at National Review.
BTW, my favorite line is "First, let us note that if supposedly all-powerful Israel is dedicated to exterminating the Palestinian people, it is doing a bad job." LOL!

Well Sunday Didn't Go As Planned!

The plan because it was steroid day, was to do a few small projects around the house and rest a lot. Rest and enjoy my last bad carb day before being back on Atkins.

Frankie was staying at a friend's house and he was planning on being home to shovel long before I had to head to Jen's for "24".

No go.

I woke at 0910 to take the steroids (the earlier in the day the better). I was going to go to back to sleep, but there was a call from work. I wasn't on-call, but I had to go anyway.

That meant shoveling. I had to get out. At least I didn't have to shovel at work, we have a really good crew maintaining the property and they don't stop for weekends.

I ended up spending more than seven hours. So much for lots of rest and eating M&Ms, lol.

I had to stop home before heading to Jen's on top of leaving work much later than I wanted. I was getting text messages from Jen threatening no entry after 1955. I got there at 1946.....but I had to shovel my way in!

I had asked Frankie if he had taken care of Jen's - he always does. He told me that one of his friends reported that all Jen's snow had blown away. This does happen on occasion because she is right on the waterfront.

Not this time.

By this point I am wiped.

Shovel. Shovel. Shovel. Lean against the house and huff and puff.

Shovel. Shovel. Shovel. Lean against the shovel and huff and puff.

Jen came to the door and sarcastically asked - "Are you done playing in the snow?"

YOU'RE WELCOME! Grumble.....grumble.

I got in and she had it paused in the DVR. I was trying to get into IM so we could discuss it with SB. The plan was to live blog it. That didn't' work.

I didn't get any food until 2100. I was starving! It was supposed to be chicken parm, mozzarella sticks, garlic bread and Coke. Followed by ice cream and brownies.

I got reheated spaghetti and meatballs.

Not the "24" feast I expected.

But no matter - Jack was fabulous!

SB was disappointed. He hopes it gets better.

Jen is devastated that Tony is bad. She has decided that Tony is actually infiltrating the bad guys on his own and is really, after all, deep down.....the good guy she always loved.

My favorite part was when Agent Walker told the other FBI agent to take Jack's gun. I looked at Jen and we both laughed. Jack doesn't need a gun to kill people!

I like the POTUS this year. I wanted her husband to toss the son's GF off the roof, Jen laughed and SB said "That works for me!"

I am in the minority in backing our intervention in the fictitious Sengala.

I loathe Janeane Garofalo, but her character is funny.

I was very happy with the big two hour beginning and excited there is two more hours tonight.

I will leave work earlier and set up the laptop in the corner where the light won't both Jen - we watch in the dark.

Life is good.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Adam Of Universal Hub Remembers Something.....

....that was tickling the back of my brain.

Lt. Kevin Kelley Leads His Men

When the reports came in about the BFD ladder accident. I called Jen and asked if Billy was there, no he is still on Purchase Street at Headquarters. I called "T" to ask who was killed. Was it someone from Charlestown? No. Lt. Kelley was lived in Quincy but was OFD. I was remembering some connection. Then I came to me that the Discovery Channel had done a special "Firehouse USA:Boston". It was back a few years ago. I had watched and I was sure it was Huntington Ave that was featured.

It was and Adam posted vid showing Lt. Kelley in action. I'm going to post it because in my opinion.....this is how you should think of Lt. Kelley.

One of Adam's commenters posted another video from the series on YouTube. (Tissue alert, Sherri.) the second half of this vid (2 minute 55 second mark and beyond) which shows Kelley at a family party with his wife and three daughters choked me up.

There are more on YouTube.

Lt. Kevin M. Kelley, BFD

My condolences to Lt. Kelley's family and his family in the BFD.
Lt. Kevin M. Kelley
Quincy, Mass
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Lt. BFD, Kevin M. of Quincy, formerly of Dorchester, January 9, 2009. Beloved husband of Gloria (Perez) Kelley of Quincy. Loving father of Susan Kelley, Christine Kelley and Maureen Kelley, all of Quincy. Son of the late Thomas J. Kelley, BFD and Margaret B. (Grant). Brother of Patricia Trezenka and her husband William of Quincy, Peggy Paulli and her husband Peter of Millis and Kathleen Nazzaro and her husband James of Braintree. Uncle of six nieces and nephews. Kevin's family gave him the most enjoyment in his life. They loved traveling together and took frequent trips to Disney World and cruises to the Caribbean. He was especially proud of his three daughters. His second love was the Boston Fire Department. Kevin is a second-generation firefighter and the 4th most senior Lieutenant on the job. He could have worked anywhere in Boston, but because of his nature, he chose the busiest firehouse in Boston. He was well respected amongst his peers, active in the union and loved going to work. Kevin had a great sense of humor, loved to tease and possessed a tremendous work ethic. He was a member of the following organizations: Boston Firefighter's Local 718 of the IAFF, Boston Firefighter's Charitable Association, Boston Fireman's Relief Fund, Boston Fireman's Mutual Relief Association and the Boston Gaelic Brigade. He was a 1973 graduate of Don Bosco High School. Relatives and friends are respectfully invited to attend the Funeral Mass in St. Ann's Church, Wollaston, Wednesday at 10:00 A.M. Visiting Hours in Keohane Funeral Home, 785 Hancock St., QUINCY, Tuesday from 4:00-8:00 P.M. Burial in Cedar Grove Cemetery, Boston. Donations in memory of Lt. Kelley may be made to the Boston Firefighter Local 718 Burn Foundation, 55 Hallet Street, Dorchester, MA 02124. Call 1-800-Keohane or see www.Keohane.com for directions & online condolences.

At the firehouse, seeking solace
By Megan Woolhouse and Matt Collette
Globe Correspondent / January 11, 2009

When firefighter Glen Campbell woke up yesterday morning, the world was different, he said. His longtime friend and mentor, the man who "taught me everything I know," had died.

There was little question as to where he needed to be: the red-brick firehouse on Huntington Avenue where he and Kevin M. Kelley had once worked together. Like so many other Boston firefighters yesterday, he went to the station for camaraderie and whatever comfort could be found.

"We just hang together, be together, and tell stories," Campbell said, standing in a crowd of firefighters who gathered at the station yesterday. Looking at the other somber firefighters as they shared remembrances and the occasional hug, he said, "Sitting at home is not going to do it for us."

The firehouse on Huntington Avenue was a refuge yesterday not only for firefighters, but also for a community shocked by the sudden loss. The people who live and work in this neighborhood amid imposing hospitals, sprawling college campuses, and apartment buildings know the firefighters of the Huntington Avenue station, the firefighters who respond to countless false alarms, minor medical calls, and apartment fires.

And the firefighters got to know their neighbors, throwing open their doors in warm weather, playing basketball on nearby courts, and pulling the occasional prank on a passerby.
Kelley's death pulled back the veil, a grim reminder of the mortal risks that come with the job.
Flowers, cards, and mementos piled up outside the building yesterday. Cars slowed as they passed. A young woman jogging by halted abruptly and gasped at the sight of the memorial's makeshift cross bearing Kelley's name.

Girma Belay, executive director of Roxbury Tenants of Harvard, which owns Mission Park where the crash occurred, said he knew Kelley and the firefighters involved in the crash.

"I can tell you, we felt like one of us were lost," he said.

Black bunting hung along the exterior of the station, and the flag atop the building was at half staff. The middle bay where Ladder 26 used to sit was empty. Station Captain Arthur Johnson said being with other firefighters yesterday at Kelley's beloved firehouse where he spent so much of his time seemed like the right thing to do. The two were working together Friday just before the call came in. Johnson said he knew something had gone terribly wrong when he heard yelling from his radio.

"The guys from the back [of the firetruck] were saying, 'I need help!' " Johnson said. "I knew it wasn't good."

Some firefighters at other stations who knew Kelley heard the screaming on the radio but could not leave their posts. Other firefighters said yesterday that even at the height of the crisis when the truck was rushing out of control down the steep hill, Kelley thought to sound an air horn to warn motorists and pedestrians of the danger.

Campbell said it was Kelley who mentored him and helped him move up in the department. He is now a lieutenant. Recalling his friend, Campbell's eyes filled with tears.

Kelley liked to tell stories, long ones that he could drag out.

"You wouldn't get the full story until you were ready to leave in the morning," he said.

Johnson described Kelley as a "family man first," with his dedication to the station "a close, very close, second."

Bonded by the long hours spent together and the ever-present possibility of death, firefighters at the station said they knew many of the details of Kelley's home life, his wife, and three adult daughters and how he used to take them to Disney World as children.

Lieutenant John Soares, his voice cracking, added: "His family, they don't know us as much as we know them."

Campbell said he and several other firefighters had visited Kelley's family and planned to visit Robert Bernard O'Neill. O'Neill was in the driver's seat when the firetruck went out of control on one of Boston's steepest hills Friday afternoon. He was released from the hospital yesterday.

Two other firefighters received minor injuries.

Yesterday, people in the community offered their sympathy and support.

Richard Craven, who works nearby at Children's Hospital in the parking department, stood quietly in front of the station in the bitter cold with his 13-year-old daughter, Alana. He wanted to pay his respects, he said, even though he didn't know Kelley or the other firefighters at the station other than seeing them respond to emergencies at the hospital.

"I feel a kinship with them," he said. "These people have a thankless job and I'm just a regular citizen trying to show my respect."

Nancy Clerveau, who lives on Mission Hill, said firefighters are always responding to false alarms and to calls at halfway houses in the neighborhood. She said she points the firefighters out to her two grandsons whenever they're out, calling them "role models."

One of her grandsons, 6-year-old Exavion, was accompanying her on a trip to Star Market.

"He wanted to be a firefighter. . . . And his brother, too."

She shuddered to think what could happen. "And I can see myself just sitting by the phone, pulling out my hair," she said.

Derek Miller, 21, a student at Northeastern University who lives nearby, passes by the fire station daily, where it's not unusual to see the firefighters open the big doors and pull chairs up to the sidewalk in warm weather.

"I see them out there all the time, they're always there," Miller said.

He recalled falling for a prank in front of the firehouse one day.

"I remember I was walking by, and I see a five- or ten-dollar bill on the ground. I set all my stuff down, and I reach down to grab it, and it zips right by. And I look up, and I see they pulled it away - it was connected to a piece of clear wire. They're all right inside the station, and they were laughing."

At Il Mondo Pizzeria on the corner of Huntington Avenue and Smith Street, Shukri Ighrayev said he felt sadness.

"They were doing their jobs," he said. "I'm here - I make pizza. I'm in no danger."

Twenty-three-year-old Siobhan Soucie, who lives near the scene of the crash on Mission Hill, said she got to know the firefighters at the Huntington Avenue station walking home when she was a student at Northeastern. Yesterday, she brought a bouquet of flowers, wrapped in pink, green, and orange tissue paper to leave with the others piled in front of the station.

"I think they're a bunch of great guys," she said. "You feel safer 'cause they're around."
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Note - If you are going to make an asshat comment about the BFD union, or possible causes of this accident.....or worse, assess blame, don't bother. I will not publish any comment in this post that I feel is inappropriate. You want to exercise your free speech, drop me an email and I'll open a post for you. But not in this one.

Adding Cinnamon

Have I ever told you about the crazy shit I take? No, I don't mean the Revlimid. I mean the vitamins, etc.

When I was being good and Atkins-ing, I took a multivitamin and a super-B and biotin. I had read biotin helped people on low carb diets or people who didn't process carbs correctly.

So then I go to the physical in June and she tells me that I am completely vitamin D deficient. So, she puts me on a prescription strength D for a while and when that's finished I am advised to take 1000 mg of D per day.

Then came the MM DX and based on input from doctors and what I have read I added some stuff.
Biotin - 1000 mcg
Ester-C - 500 mg with 55 mg calcium
(2) "D" - 2000 IU each
multi-vitamin
"E" - 400 IU
"B" super complex - that's the one Jen and I both notice if we miss it for any amount of time, we feel sluggish
alpha lipoic acid - 200 mg - this is supposed to help with neuropathy which my meds can cause.
Magnesium - 250 mg - Dr. Miller recommended this for leg cramps

Plus generic Prilosec for heartburn.....they were all peeved with my use of Rolaids, too much calcium.

Low dose aspirin for the CVTs and PEs I could be at risk for.

Now I am adding 1000 mg of Cinnamon.

I thought about germanium based on some stuff someone sent me, but Memorial Sloan Kettering says don't, so I won't.

And maybe something called Resveratrol, it's got grape seed extract....can't hurt.

It's probably just voodoo....but what the hell.

25 mg Revlimid81 mg LD aspirin

My Two Cents

At Key Moment, Diverse G.O.P. Leadership Choice
WASHINGTON — As the nation is on the verge of inaugurating its first black president, the Republican Party is facing a telling choice: whether to elect its first black chairman.

The contest for Republican Party chairman comes as Republican leaders seek to figure out what the party stands for, as well as what face to put forward as they struggle to avoid shrinking into a party of Southern white men in an increasingly diverse country.

The six candidates are four white men, including two from the South, and two black men: Michael Steele, the former lieutenant governor of Maryland, and J. Kenneth Blackwell, the former Ohio secretary of state.
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J. Kenneth Blackwell, the former Ohio secretary of state. - unfairly tainted by election fraud questions. I know it's unfair, but that's life.

Michael Steele, the former lieutenant governor of Maryland - here's the one I want.

Katon Dawson, the South Carolina Republican chairman - poor judgement

Chip Saltsman, the Tennessee party chairman - poor judgement

Saul Anuzis, the Michigan chairman - no name recognition, not even from me

Mike Duncan, incumbent - not for nothing, but Mike Duncan presided over a losing team.

I am not just picking the least unappealing. I like Steele. I like what he has to say and how he says it.

Besides Michael Steele likes puppies.....you can't overestimate that demographic, can you?

Boop......Boop......Boop

It's 1211 here on the East Coast.

7 hours 47 minutes 30 seconds

Yet Another Reason To Delay A Stem Cell Transplant

Like I wasn't already on the fence.

Research shows cell's inactive state is critical for effectiveness of cancer treatment

The basic thrust of the story is that research at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center has uncovered a possible pathway toward maintaining a cell's quiescence.

Why is that important?

Quiescence is a state that allows bone marrow cells to escape the lethal effects of standard cancer treatments.

Sounds like a leg up to me.

It also sounds like I have more reading and thinking to do.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

"24"

Jen & I are excited.

"24" is back in boop, boop, boop, less than 24 hours, lol.

The vid is old because season 7 was delayed, but it's still the story line.

This is a vid from the Fox website.

Fox's official "24" website has a countdown clock. I wish I were more tech savvy, I would put it over here.

"24" is part of my *before* life. I associate it with the gym - as in dashing home or to Jen's from the gym to watch. I associate it with blogging - I mean the kind where I write about stuff other than my illness..........and all my whining.

When Jen and I were shopping today we picked up "24" viewing party stuff. LOL We went to Sam's Club with my company's card. We spent an ungodly amount of money. But we had to. We are finally in synch and ready to go back on Atkins Monday. And putting in the effort to go to Sam's Club and Walmart saved us a ton of money. Have to be careful with the do-re-mi. It never works when we aren't together. We also hit Walmart, so we don't have to go shopping for weeks! We discussed "24" in the checkout line and Jen mentioned being disappointed in last year's story. I asked if she meant to actual series or the movie "Redemption". She made a dismissive gesture and said Jack hadn't killed enough people in "Redemption" (we are quite bloodthirsty). Plus she didn't believe the Irish guy was "Special Forces". She doesn't think he is a worthy contemporary of Jack's. Plus he isn't actually Irish, lol.

"Oh, come one, he killed plenty!"

The cocked eyebrow and the evil smile "Plenty? Like Good-n-Plenty?" I burst out laughing. "Because that would be a lot if it was Good-n-Plenty."

"Come on! Jack killed that guy with his thighs after they burnt his face! You see there's quantity and there's quality." She was laughing at me, so I couldn't look at her while I was making my argument. LOL But it was a solid argument! If you don't believe me, see 1:23 of this YouTube vid.

Blogs.4Bauer rated the episode at "Final Kill Counter Update = 17 points (14 kills, 3 Dammits)"

That's another thing I miss, Blogs.4Bauer. Lot's of good stuff there.

It will be a fun weekend....but starting Monday it's meat, meat, meat and the gym.

Until Monday though.........it's Jack and Tony (Jen is soooo upset he is "dark") and M&Ms and pasta. The standard "carb coma".

Good good guys, good bad guys.........it's probably too much to hope for that SecDef Heller shows up, huh?

The 2008 Weblog Awards

****UPDATE - I forgot "Best New Blog"......BostonSoul!!!!!******
I have been remiss in not posting this earlier.

There are several categories, here are my picks. (I have been voting, so I am not a total slacker).
You can vote once a day from each computer you have access to.

The Armorer is a contender for "Best Midsize Blog". Please follow the link and vote for "Argghhh!".

Bubblehead is a contender for "Best Up and Coming Blog". Please follow the link and vote for "The Stupid Shall Be Punished".

"Best Military Blog" has several entrants that I read......it was tough......but I am going for "The War On Big Tobacco".

Then we branch out to "Best Canadian Blog" and vote for "The Torch".

Thank you for your support.

I've Not Been Completely Useless

I've actually been keeping up with one NYR.

Lia from HomeFront Six came up with this.

Footprints in the Sand

We are going to read the Bible in a year.

I did this a long time ago when Frankie was a baby. You couldn't put him down for anything. I can see now indulging that quirk has set me up for a lifetime of nonsense, but at the time......

Anyway, I spent many evenings on the couch, Frankie dozing on my chest and me, reading the Bible.

I told someone I was doing this and they said "Where are you going to buy a Bible and how you can be sure it's for Catholics?"

"Hello? I own a Bible, thank you very much."

"Oh. How are you going to find it in your house?" The renovation continues to cause much chaos and I wasn't that organized before it began.

"It's in the bookcase, top shelf. I have always been able to put my hands right on it." It's a little misshapen. I stick stuff in it. Prayer cards. Notes from Father Mahoney. There are flowers from Mama Kelley's funeral and from Marie's (my mother-in-law, a lovely woman), etc. So I have to hold it carefully.

Anyway, I've been keeping up.

Mark Steyn Slays Me

I always get a giggle from this guy. Love how his mind works!

Nuts [Mark Steyn]
In The Los Angeles Times, Joel Stein pooh-poohs mass peanut hysteria:

We did agree that it is strange how peanut allergies are only an issue in rich, lefty communities.

"We don't see this problem much in African American or poor communities. So there's something going on here. We don't see them in Ecuador and Guatemala," Christakis said.

A study of Jews of similar demographics and genetics in Britain and Israel found that British kids were 10 times more likely to have peanut allergies than Israelis. That's probably because Israeli kids have other things to be afraid of.

Indeed. They've got real nuts that really are trying to kill them. Speaking of which, this snippet from Gaza in The New York Times gets to the heart of the matter:

Why are you so happy?” this reporter asked. “Look around you.”

A girl who looked about 18 screamed as a surgeon removed shrapnel from her leg. An elderly man was soaked in blood. A baby a few weeks old and slightly wounded looked around helplessly. A man lay with parts of his brain
coming out. His family wailed at his side.

Don’t you see that these people are hurting?” the militant was asked.
But I am from the people, too,” he said, his smile incandescent. “They lost their loved ones as martyrs. They should be happy. I want to be a martyr, too.”

Hamas is a mental illness masquerading as a nationalist movement. When I was at Gitmo a couple of years back, one of the most philosophically interesting moments came during a conversation with the camp's mental health doctors on how you tell when a suicide bomber is feeling depressed.
01/10 09:55 AM

Unwarranted

****UPDATE - This story is being discussed many places. One aspect is in this post over at CDR Salamander's place.*****

The Navy occassionally names ships after people who are still living.

If they warrant such an honor.

For example, former President George H. W. Bush. (See post below.)

However, the ridiculous proposal being discussed at the Phibian's place has me steamed.

Bubblehead is discussing it too.

And Galrahn.

Navy Names Virginia Class Submarine USS John Warner

This is wrong.

Wrong.

Wrong.

I don't give a fat rat's ass what Mr. Elizabeth Taylor (h/t Mike, Phib's emailer) has done over the years. He negated any possible good he may have done with his poor treatment of CDR Lippold.

That's right........I hold a grudge.

So?

USS George H. W. Bush CVN 77

Today the USS George H. W. Bush was commissioned.
NORFOLK, Va. — It's the perfect gift for an old Navy flier: 1,092 feet of flattop.
"What do you give a guy who has been blessed and has just about everything he has ever needed?" asked President George W. Bush from aboard the Navy's newest ship. "Well, an aircraft carrier."
The USS George H.W. Bush, a steel-gray vessel longer than three football fields and built at a cost of $6.2 billion, was commissioned Saturday with its namesake, the 41st president, and other members of the Bush family on hand for the ceremonies at Naval Station Norfolk.
Adorned for the day with red, white and blue bunting, the USS George H.W. Bush is one of the Nimitz class of nuclear-powered aircraft carriers, the largest warships in the world.
"The ship that bears our dad's name is more than 95,000 tons of aluminum and steel," Bush said from a podium tucked under the flight deck. "She will carry nearly 6,000 of the finest sailors and Marines in the world. She represents the craftsmanship of many skilled builders, and thousands of hours of preparation."
Read the rest here.
My favortie line came from the christening back in '06.
She is unrelenting, she is unshakable, she is unyielding, she is unstoppable,” Bush said, lauding the warship’s state-of-the-art design before pausing for a punch line aimed at his mother’s well-known steely constitution. “As a matter of fact, probably should have been named the Barbara Bush.”
Here is video of the former President touring the ship.

Congratulations to former President Bush and I wish fair winds and following seas to her crew.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Ready For The 4th Round

New meds came today. I start again Sunday.

Sorry For Not Posting

At the suggestion of a commenter I joined the ACOR - Association of Cancer Online resources.

In specific, the Multiple Myeloma listserv.

It's been like drinking out of a fire house.

Things are rolling.

My biggest laugh was last night during Jeopardy. The category was abstract art. I was getting my ass kicked when they put up a picture. It was nothing more than a black canvas in a frame. It's supposedly something famous.

Jen was crying laughing, which set me off. She was gasping that she would have paid anything to be at the opening and saying to people "Do you see it?"

We are so gauche!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Crazy Traffic Last Night

So I liked "Seven Pounds" so much I wanted to take my mother. Grace said she and the girls were going to see it Tuesday night. Perfect! Jen and I would pick our mother up and meet her there.

Jen and I got a late start leaving home, instead of 5 pm we left at 5:30 (for a 6:50 show in Revere), so we called Grace and asked her to get Mum. No problem.

Then we ran into heavy traffic heading into the city. We weren't too worried, this usually clears up before the Liberty tunnel....after six....on a Tuesday. But instead, it kept getting worse. We were baffled.

Finally there was one clue. Signs said they had the Mystic River bridge down to one lane. We thought that was stupid to start such construction so early in the evening, but we'd just go 16 or 60. But those were no better. 93 was total stop and go, it took us forever to get off at Sullivan. We could see the lanes winding down to get into the Mystic and they were packed.

Then we get a text from Debbie asking where we are. We told her Sullivan and she said they were in City Square....behind us!

"Don't get on the bridge!" LOL

I made an executive decision. "Turn around, go back to Papa's. I'll order pizza."

So we hung out at our parent's house instead. We always have fun together.

When Jen and I headed home two hours later, the Mystic River bridge onramps were still jammed. Glad we were headed the other way.

Jen still wanted to see a movie, so we went to "The Day The Earth Stood Still"

Ehh. That Reeves kid is no Michael Rennie. "You will forgive me if I speak bluntly."

Plus you can't beat that creepy music in the original.

Klaatu barada nikto.

Monday, January 05, 2009

So Far...So Good!

I didn't actually go to sleep until 0500 this morning, but I slept until 1300.

I felt great!

The tremor was crazy, but who cares?

I worked. I had dinner with Jen. I frosted the crazy cake.

It was all good.

I Took A Pill At Midnight

Now it's 0145.

It's steroid day and they upped it to 40mg, which is where I started.

Should I take another?

I am wired for sound.

The Cake Is Cursed!

I haven't had this much trouble with a cake in forever.

Wait, I haven't baked a cake from scratch in forever.

Anyway.....

Jen was home. I got the mixer. I made dinner for the boys. Frankie was a little nervous and asked me why I was cooking so much. I laughed and looked at him quizzically. Then it hit me, the last time I cooked this much was when my neighbor was dying a few months ago.

"Frankie, everyone is ok."

"Cool"

He went back to the game.

After dinner I called Jen to see if she would cook the cake. The one thing I am just really awful at is timing. I have stood right in front of the oven and still burned cookies. Of course it could have something to do with the fact that I was standing there reading a book.....

Anyway, I put the plastic lid on the pyrex mixing bowl full of batter and drove the 750 feet - I know I usually say 400 feet, but I actually counted the house lots between us the other day. Turns out it's 750 feet - I'm also bad at estimating distance. When I got there I looked down and the lid was loose. Cake batter all over the seat. I grabbed my gym bag and pulled out a T-shirt "Matty - Paratrooper of Love! (BTW, go read this post - I thought it rocked! It's really from Huffington Post, but I'd rather send you through Matty. Although....you should read the whole thing.....well use your best judgement, it really is a compelling answer to the foolish "disproportionate response" blather. Which, BTW, Juan Williams slipped into the panel discussion on Fox News Sunday this morning. Every time I hear it, I want to tear my hair out! Usually I am alone in the car and I start screaming and ranting like a lunatic.) and tried to sop it up. It was all over the seat and the book I am reading.

Guess I will have to buy my mother another copy of "The Given Day" - which I absolutely love!

Seven Pounds

Go see it.

Hurry.

If anyone tries to talk to you about it, politely tell them to stop.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Is The Cake Not Meant To Be?

I put in too much sugar.

Ok, we'll just adjust the rest of the ingredients and there will be cupcakes too.

I fried the handmixer.....well Bill and I fried the handmixer, lol. My wrist was getting tired, so Bill was standing there just drinking a beer during a break in the Celtics game. I handed him the mixer.

"Is it supposed to be this hot?"

"No, stop and let it cool."

Too late.

It wasn't the real handmixer. I can't find that. So I was using the pulse/shake mixer. You know me....."inappropriate and unprepared"......it says so under my name at the top.

I called down to Jen's. She's not home.

Good thing I have keys, lol.

Do I need a ski mask and a black turtleneck for this mission?

Some Pics

The view from my kitchen window this past August. The boys who mow had trimmed the ivy on the chimney for me and I was surprised at how much it had encroached on my view. Walmart on January 2, 2009. All the Christmas candy is gone and this stocking person is putting up Valentine's Day candy. This is so wrong!


Whew!

I madeit to the dump. I shopped for my cake and dinner supplies.

But I am wiped out.

I am going to have to take a "steroid break", lol!

I am in such a good mood.

I am still breathless and my legs hurt, but I feel like I see *me* just waiting around the corner.

This will be better tomorrow and better still on Tuesday.

The cold is almost gone.

The gym is calling.

This is going to be a great week!

OK, Enough Time On The Computer

It is sunny and beautiful here in New England today. Sure it's cold, but cripes! It's New England. It's January. It's the way it's supposed to be.

I am going to shower (I was cleaning some things while I waited for huge PDF docs to download. Or sometimes just to get up and walk because of the steroids.

After I dress I am going to hit the dump......go to the grocery and pick up some ingredients......and make a big Sunday dinner.

Tomorrow starts seven days of no drugs, so I am on a really good mood. The drugs are getting harder to take. People tell me they will save my life. But the reality is that no one has proven that my life is in danger and all my problems come from the drugs.

We are going to have pork roast and potatoes and gravy and veggies and rolls.

I found another golden cake recipe, so thats up in the air.

OK, Some Facts and Figures

First I had to make some eggs and watch FoxNewsSunday, but then I did my digging.

You can follow along at home by starting here - Budget of the United States Government: Browse. From this page, you pick a year in Clinton's or "W"'s administration. They have reports available on line going back to 1996.

"W"'s first year is 2002.

From the 2003 budget we read that $51.5 billion was spent in FY02.

From the 2004 budget we read that $56.9 billion was spent in FY03.

Then the GAO takes on a different way of reporting with everything broken down by program, so I shifted to the VA's website.

On page 68 of the Department of Veterans Affairs FY 2005 "Annual Performance and Accountability Report" it is explained that the net costs for 2004 were $63.3 billion and the net costs for 2005 were $65.6 billion.

On page 77 of the Department of Veterans Affairs FY 2006 "Annual Performance and Accountability Report" it is repeated that 2005's net cost were 65.6 billion. then the FY 2006 figure of $70.3 billion is introduced.

On page 91 of the Department of Veterans Affairs FY 2007 "Annual Performance and Accountability Report" the 2006 figure is corrected to $69.3 billion (still an increase over 2005) and the FY 2007 figure is projected at $76.2 billion.

On page 87 of the Department of Veteran's Affairs FY 2008 "Annual Performance and Accountability Report" the 2007 figure of $76.2 billion is confirmed and the 2008 figure is given as $82.5 billion.

Ok.........where is the cut?

Maybe..........

Maybe.....this one?

Golden Cake with Chocolate Sour Cream Frosting
From the epicurious website. All my cookbooks, including my two favorites, Betty Crocker (a wedding present in 1980 and just like my mother's) and Martha Stewart, are packed away because of the renovations.
So I poked around and found this while I wait for all the slow PDF documents from the VA to download (I am up to FY '07).

What do you think?

yield: Makes 12 servings
Watch everyone's eyes open wide when you serve this big four-layer cake.
Active time: 1 hr Start to finish: 3 hr

Ingredients
3 1/2 cups cake flour (not self-rising)
1 tablespoon baking powder
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon salt
2 sticks (1 cup) unsalted butter, softened
2 cups sugar
4 large eggs at room temperature
2 teaspoons vanilla
2 cups sour cream
Chocolate sour cream frosting
Garnish: brown sugar buttercream

Preparation
Preheat oven to 350°F.
Butter 2 (9- by 2-inch) round cake pans and line bottoms of each with rounds of wax or parchment paper. Butter paper and dust pans with flour, knocking out excess.

Sift together flour, baking powder, baking soda, and salt.

Beat together butter and sugar in a large bowl with an electric mixer until light and fluffy. Add eggs 1 at a time, beating well after each addition, then beat in vanilla. Add half of flour mixture and mix at low speed until just blended. Add sour cream, mixing until just combined, then add remaining flour mixture, mixing at low speed until batter is smooth.

Divide batter between pans, smoothing tops. Bake in middle of oven until cake is springy to the touch and a tester comes out clean, 30 to 40 minutes. Cool in pans on racks 10 minutes, then invert onto racks, remove paper, and cool completely.

Trim tops of cooled cake layers with a long serrated knife if necessary to make flat and level.

Halve each layer horizontally with serrated knife to make a total of 4 layers.

Put 1 cake layer on a cake plate and spread with 3/4 cup frosting. Layer remaining cake layers using 3/4 cup frosting between each layer. Frost top and sides of cake with remaining frosting.

Legendary 'First SEAL' passes away

From MustangLT (a member of Princess Crabby's Navy Coterie) via SailorBob (a place for SWO where they let me peek).

Legendary 'First SEAL' passes away
Boehm pioneered Navy's unconventional warfare
Roy Boehm of Punta Gorda, a cantankerous retired U.S. Navy lieutenant commander who fought three wars, started the Navy's first SEAL team and shared his harrowing adventures --and his battles against military bureaucracy --in an autobiography, has completed his last mission.
Roy Boehm, who had struggled with health problems for many years, died at home Tuesday night. He was 84.
His widow, Susan Boehm, declined to be interviewed about her husband. In fact, she pleaded that no story be written.
Susan said she was trying to carry out her husband's last wish, that his death not be publicized.
He wanted no obituary, no funeral service and no fanfare over his death, Susan said.
"He just wanted to go in peace," she said.
Boehm, however, had become a legend nationally for the historic role he played in pioneering unconventional warfare tactics.
Locally, Boehm also was respected for the way he stood up for the military veterans within his community, several local veterans said Friday.
"John Kennedy was right," wrote U.S. Navy Admiral Whitey Taylor, in a 1997 letter to Boehm. "The U.S. Navy SEALs will bear your mark as long as they and the freedom they fight for exists."
"He was quite a great guy," said Lionel Schuman, a board member with Charlotte County's Military Heritage & Aviation Museum.
Schuman said he got to know Boehm, who became an avid pilot during his retirement, through both men's participation in events with Experimental Aircraft Association 565.
Boehm and his wife, Susan, started a tradition of providing hot dogs, beverages and other snacks to military personnel who stopped by the group's hangar during the annual air shows, Schuman recalled.
"He definitely stood behind you, and he was always there when you needed him," Schuman said.
"His last 30 years were as full as the 31 he spent in the Navy," said Susan Boehm.
She declined to elaborate.
But the Boehms had opened their home to a Sun reporter several times for interviews in the past. The home was decorated from stem to stern in a style that spoke of the heart of the old sailor.
The lanai was decorated with a fake waterfall and jungle foliage. A sign on the wall identified the abode as "Hog Hollow."
"Beware of Pick Pockets and Loose Women," read another sign.
Even Boehm's cremation urn, which sat near a chest labeled "Davy Jones' Locker," spoke of his attitude toward death. Open the lid, and one would find a miniature ship's cabin, replete with a bunk and a sea bag.
"My ashes are going into the sea bag," Boehm had said in a 1997 interview. "How many people can hardly wait to get where they're going?"
Boehm was most proud, however, of a plaque mounted on his wall: "Roy Boehm, Man-O-Warsman." That honor was bestowed on him by the men who served under his command.
"It's the highest compliment you can get," Boehm had said.
In his book, "First SEAL," Boehm recalls how he got initiated as a deep-sea diver. A shipmate tricked him into trying on a dive suit -- and then tossed him overboard.
He describes how he manned the guns and tended to his badly injured shipmates during some of the greatest battles of World War II. They included the Battle of Cape Esperance, during which his ship, the Duncan, sank under a hail of shells.
Boehm survived 13 hours in shark-infested waters, bleeding from shrapnel wounds, before getting rescued.
Later, Boehm became convinced the Navy needed a special forces team that could accomplish any mission, anywhere at anytime.
In his book, he tells how he was disciplined several times for insubordination as he bent rules to properly equip his men.
President Kennedy commissioned him and one other commander to start the first two Sea Air and Land teams in 1960.
Boehm subsequently wrote manuals for the training program, which became the foundation for the toughest training in the U.S. military.
Recruits learned the skills of covert operations. They learned to crack safes, break out of jails and steal cars.
They learned how to jump out of airplanes at 33,000 feet and free-fall to within 700 feet before opening their chutes. They learned to swim to submarines and board them.
Boehm was subsequently transferred to Vietnam. As an "adviser," he trained insurgents and commanded river boat patrols in guerrilla actions in 1963-64 and 1968.
In retirement, Boehm learned to fly airplanes and competed in motorized parachute competitions.
"He was youngest old guy I ever met, just for his energy and his enthusiasm for life," said Kim Lovejoy, director of the military museum.
Retired U.S. Army Brig. Gen. Rufus Lazzell said he greatly admired Boehm.
"He had a good sense of humor and he certainly served his country well," Lazzell said. "In addition, he was just an all-around kind of guy that you liked. He always displayed his patriotism."
Randy Spence, past commander of Veterans of Foreign Wars Post 10476, said he appreciated Boehm for shedding light on the nature of SEAL operations.
"He was a great inspiration, devoted not only to his country, but also to his community and family and friends," Spence said.
"He's an amazing man," said Terry Lynn, director of the Charlotte County Veterans Council. "Even to this day, you can tell there's a commanding presence about him."
Lynn said he first met Boehm at a dinner for veterans at a Punta Gorda restaurant in November. A long line to get seated had formed, and Lynn overheard Boehm say he could stand no longer.
Lynn said he offered to escort Boehm to a seat, but Boehm refused.
"He didn't feel he should be put ahead of anybody," Lynn said.
Boehm agreed to the escort only after Lynn enlisted him to serve by greeting guests from a table of council officials.
E-mail: gmartin@sun-herald.com
By GREG MARTIN
Staff Writer
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LCDR Roy Boehm and his wife Susan.

I wish you a fair wind a following sea, sir.

I've Got To Move This Out Of The Comments

Stella left an off-topic comment about homeless veterans in the post below. The discussion doesn't belong there, so I am moving it up here.

Stella said...
Maggie, off-topic. Did You Know 200,000 Vets Are Sleeping on the Streets?
No veteran deserves this.
03 January, 2009 14:42

BostonMaggie said...
Your article exaggerates a sad and difficult problem.
The VA estimates the number at 154,000
By and large their situation has little to do with their veteran status. It has to do with the fact that most of the help for the homeless is aimed at women and children.
03 January, 2009 14:51

Stella said...
I have a real issue with veterans left in the streets with no shelter and food. Veterans' benefits were cut six years in a row; that's reprehensible. (Maggie's note - here's my problem. This statement is patently untrue.) OK, 200,000 is an exaggeration, but there's still 154,000 too many veterans living in sub-standard conditions.

This comment really got to me: Right now, the number of homeless male and female Vietnam era veterans is greater than the number of service persons who died during that war. That hit me in the gut. I had no idea.

Non-military private and public charities could help non-veterans, particularly women and children. The VA does have Homeless Veteran Program Coordinators, but what is their situation with the funding cuts? The VA should assume responsibility for aiding veterans.

A VA is in my area: yet, I frequently see homeless veterans. You're absolutely right: this is a sad, difficult situation that needs attention.

Pardon my rant, and thanks for the info, Maggie. That's an extremely informative site. Take care.
03 January, 2009 22:47
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Of course this is a discussion Stella and I have had before. You see Stella likes to say that Veteran's benefits have been cut under the Bush Administration and I, of course, say that's untrue.

Well I guess this will be the day I pull together the links to prove my point. After all, it's steroid day and I won't be that much use otherwise.

Although I might make a cake just to needle Jennifer. The other night we were sitting on her couch and I said I was in the mood for cake, she razzed me. The next day I worked and she had the day off. I sent her a text and asked of she were making me a cake, she asked if she had to. I said yes. It was a disaster. She didn't have the right ingredients and she had no cake pan and she was very unhappy with the result. Jen is an excellent cook and makes fabulous cookies......so I will have to make a cake just to give her a hard time. Actually the tremor might make for a better cake - better sifting of flour!

Anyway, back to the VA nonsense.

I'm going to poke around in the GPO and I am going to print what facts and figures I find. I won't be pretty because they are PDFs and I don't know how to cut or paste them. I will post them above this post.

But they will be facts and they will back up this statement from the GPO FY 09 budget;

Since 2001, the Department of Veteran's Affairs has:
Increased the resources available for veterans' medical care by 106%.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Marine legend Lt. Gen. Victor Krulak dies at 95

From Life Magazine - Gen. Victor H. Krulak inspecting First ANGLICO

From today's Boston Herald
Marine legend Lt. Gen. Victor Krulak dies at 95

SAN DIEGO — Lt. Gen. Victor Krulak, who headed all U.S. Marine forces in the Pacific during part of the Vietnam War, has died. He was 95.
Krulak died Monday at the Wesley Palms Retirement Community in San Diego, according to Edith Soderquist, a staff member at the facility. The cause of death was not immediately known.
Krulak commanded about 100,000 Marines in the Pacific from 1964 to 1968 — a span that saw the United States dramatically increase its forces in Vietnam.
Krulak, nicknamed "Brute" for his direct, no-nonsense style, was a decorated veteran of World War II and the Korean War.
After retirement, he often criticized the government’s handling of the Vietnam War. He wrote that the war could have been won only if the South Vietnamese had been protected and befriended and if enemy supplies from North Vietnam were cut off.
"The destruction of the port of Haiphong would have changed the whole character of the war," he said two decades after the fall of Saigon.
Krulak once summed up the U.S. dilemma in Vietnam by saying, "It has no front lines. The battlefield is in the minds of 16 or 17 million people."
Before assuming command of Fleet Marine Force Pacific, Krulak served as principal adviser on counterinsurgency warfare to then-Secretary of Defense Robert McNamara and the joint chiefs of staff.
"I never got enthusiasm out of war, and I’m convinced that the true pacifists are the professional soldiers who have actually seen it," Krulak said many years after retiring from the post.
During World War II on the island of Choiseul in the Solomon Islands, Krulak led his outnumbered battalion during an eight-day raid on Japanese forces, diverting the enemy’s attention from the U.S. invasion of Bougainville.
Krulak’s troops destroyed hundreds of tons of supplies, burning both camps and landing barges. He was wounded on Oct. 13, 1943, and later received the Navy Cross for heroism along with the Purple Heart.
At age 43 he became the youngest brigadier general in Marine Corps history up to that time. Krulak received the second of two Distinguished Service Medals when he retired from the military.
For the next nine years, he worked for Copley Newspapers, serving at various times as director of editorial and news policy and news media president of Copley News Service. He retired as vice president of The Copley Press Inc. in 1977 and contributed columns on international affairs and military matters for Copley News Service.
He also wrote the book "First to Fight," an insider’s view of the Marine Corps.
His son Charles Krulak served as commandant — the Marines’ top post — from 1995 to 1999.


You should go and read the Phibian's FBF on LTG Krulak here.


Stars of the military and Hollywood including James Cagney, General Victor H. Krulak and Dennis Weaver at the premiere of The Gallant Hours, 1960. The movie is a biography of Admiral William “Bull” Halsey.

Friday, January 02, 2009

Here's A Guy Who Knows How I Feel

I’m Trying to See All These Movies. You Want to Talk? Go Home!
by The Carpetbagger

( I'm assuming it's a guy....could be a girl.)

There are seven weeks to go before the Academy Awards ceremony, and for those who claim to follow such things — would-be experts who pontificate about which movie will win best picture or who seems like a lock for best supporting actor — peer pressure is mounting to have seen all the movies that could be in contention. But Hollywood and the people who show its films to the world seem to be doing everything in their power to make sure that it’s difficult. Seeing all the films that may receive Oscar nods this season requires a single-mindedness bordering on mania, while getting a seat in the front of a theater is akin to an assault of Tora Bora.

And then there’s the talking, and the menace of those who dislike it. At a Christmas Day screening of “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,” The Philadelphia Inquirer reported last week, a man became so enraged at a fellow audience member who was talking to his son that he pulled out a pistol and shot him in the arm. As patrons fled the theater, the newspaper reported, the gunman settled back into his seat to watch Brad Pitt in, well, peace.

........snip........

(this is my favorite part)

Last month the Bagger was at an industry preview of “The Reader,” and totally flipped his lid when the couple next to him chattered happily through a scene in which a young man walks silently through a concentration camp. “Are you twits really going to talk your way through a scene at a concentration camp?” he hissed.

Ok! Ok! I'll stop beefing! As long as I go to the local theater on a Monday or a Tuesday, I can usually have the theater pretty much to myself and I am forceful enough to make people around me quiet down without shooting them.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy New Year!

Well, this certainly wasn't my plan for how to spend the New Year....so there is no food in this house. LOL I won't starve, there are tangelos, thanks to Rachael. But I want eggs and bacon and toast.

i have no car. It's buried in the parking lot at work because Bette drove me home.

That rotten Frankie better surface soon. He has a mother to take care of.