Saturday, January 24, 2009

It's Been Decided

That is.....if I can get it past my parents.

I am going to stop all drugs for two months. I am going to have my kidneys monitored via blood work.

I am going to give my body time to heal.

I am going to regroup and marshal my forces.

Then we will reassess in two months.

I know SB will be fine because he said it to me before I said it to myself.

Grace said she didn't want me to, but she acknowledged that it's exactly what she would do if she were in this position. Grace also said I had to dedicate myself 100% to good health.....who was she talking to? The most you can hope for is what I was in June.....on Atkins more than off and at the gym more than not.

Jen thinks I'm wrong, but it's my cancer. She said she was very interested in what my number would be after two months of no treatment. Me too.

Frankie and Tommy will agree to whatever I decide.

I had a long talk with my ex last night and he said he couldn't argue with my logic.

Bette asked if I might change my mind when the current number is known next Thursday. What if it drops significantly? I told her it doesn't matter what it drops to, it won't be a lasting response, so it's a moot point.

Tomorrow I have CCD, then a 10th anniversary Mass for Mama Kelley (parents, cousins, aunts and uncles will be present) then Frankie's family birthday party.

I can't tell you how thrilled I am to know I don't have to take the steroids tomorrow.

So if I can make it past my parents......I am golden.

6 comments:

SK said...

You know I'm sending angels to watch over you...or for you to look over....whichever ;) Whatever you choose to do, I support your decision completely.

Pogue said...

You do what you have to do, Maggie. Prayin' for you.

Stella said...

Yes, Maggie! You're right: it is your cancer. You gotta do what's right for you. Enjoy the gym and I wish you the best on Atkins.

I'm 100% behind you.

FbL said...

Praying for you, too. And I'm glad you're feeling good about your decision.

*pulling for you even when you don't hear from me*

Pia said...

Look at it as if you're giving it up for Lent (just starting a little early).

The LtCol is floating around on a Navy ship right now, figured you'd be proud.

BostonMaggie said...

Thank you all for your words of support. The relief I now that it's been decided is huge.