Sunday, October 31, 2010

I Pretty Much Missed Halloween...

I can't tell you how bummed out I am. Halloween is pretty much my favorite holiday. I mean, come on! There's candy and scary stuff and costumes. Not to mention it's part of my Druid heritage.

So the plan was to get dressed, drive to Jen's, run some errands, rest....

And then hand out candy! I love seeing all the little kids.

Well, you know about me and plans.....

So I made it to Jen's. I ran a few of my errands. Then I picked up some chinese food. I have no idea what I ordered, but I know I ate two chicken fingers before I had to go to sleep. LOL!

I missed the Patriot's game. I missed MIDRATs - which was about a very scary thing, EMP. I missed little kids.

The only thing I didn't miss was watching "The Exorcist" with Jen. Classic!

Now it's midnight, I haven't really had any candy because food tastes funny lately. Plus I haven't had the energy.

But I think tomorrow should be good. I have run out Revlimid. Boohoo! Hehe! Not my fault! Seriously, this time it isn't. Someone make My Marine stop laughing. He's always pointing out that's my favorite excuse, but this time, it's true.

On the last day of the 3rd cycle, I pointed out all the things that needed to happen. I specifically mentioned that there needed to be a pregnancy test and a re-order of Revlimid. But that ball was dropped. When I went back for the 4th cycle, I pointed this out. I told them to do a pregnancy test and order the Rev (pregnancy tests are only good for 7 days and more time than that had expired). Then the Rev people started calling me. No test. No pills.

So the test was finally done on Thursday. So the Rev will probably ship tomorrow. Meanwhile, I am out. I took the last one last night.

See baby? Not my fault.

What does this mean? Well for one thing, Rev started out as a sleeping pill. I have been putting myself in a semi-coma for days now. I am not sure if it is getting harder and harder to fight my way to the surface each time....but that is how it feels. So part of my extreme fatigue is wearing off now. I often want to stop taking this pill. I have, on one occasion deliberately stopped taking it - this is how I had 5 extra to take during this cycle, lol.

So now, at midnight on Halloween, I am surfacing. I will go to bed soon, just to stay on a normal schedule. besides, I can't do much here. Jen is in bed and if I stay up and try to do anything, I will be disturbing her. I would run an errand to Walmart, but my car is blocked in the driveway. Besides, that would be noisy too.

So instead I will sleep and hope to wake refreshed and alert.


Stella said...

Sail on, sailor...

I sailed an ocean, unsettled ocean
Through restful waters and deep commotion
Often frightened, unenlightened
Sail on, sail on sailor

I wrest the waters, fight Neptune's waters
Sail through the sorrows of life's marauders
Unrepenting, often empty
Sail on, sail on sailor

Caught like a sewer rat alone but I sail
Bought like a crust of bread, but oh do I wail

Seldom stumble, never crumble
Try to tumble, life's a rumble
Feel the stinging I've been given
Never ending, unrelenting
Heartbreak searing, always fearing
Never caring, persevering
Sail on, sail on, sailor

I work the seaways, the gale-swept seaways
Past shipwrecked daughters of wicked waters
Uninspired, drenched and tired
Sail on, sail on, sailor

Always needing, even bleeding
Never feeding all my feelings
Damn the thunder, must I blunder
There's no wonder all I'm under
Stop the crying and the lying
And the sighing and my dying
Sail on, sail on sailor

BostonMaggie said...

Very nice.