I'm not here because life is a little chaotic. I am putting most of my time into being ready for the Milblog in two weeks. Although it is ironic that of all the years I have blogged on Navy things.......this year has been the lowest point. I still read stuff, not as much as I want, but certainly more than I write about.
Dr. Miller assures me that my "cognitive deficits" will resolve themselves. And I do believe him, they did before. And I am being patient, I know it will take longer this time. I know I can't compare four months of Revlimid back in '08 to what I have endured since August.
In the past I would often compose posts in my head as I went to sleep. Then I would wake up and write them. I still compose them as I fall asleep.....but they are gone in the morning! In the morning it's all about remembering which pills when. I have to remind myself to eat because I am rarely hungry. Fortunately, my father yells up to me at least once a day, but sometimes it takes a headache to remind me to eat.
Also, this is a period of somewhat conflicting physical realities. They are telling me to push myself physically and work my way back from the last several months of laying around. Great, sure.....I am doing a little walking, I am doing a little yoga. But this is also a time (after the 50 day mark) when they expect me to feel more weak and tired then just before the 50 day mark. Geez!
So I am paying more attention to eating and walking. Doesn't mean I don't miss you all, ok?
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